There are so many different degree’s of weight loss. There are people who need to lose 10 pounds, and then there are people who need to lose weight, because it is a matter of life or death. I believe everyone’s weight loss is as equally important. It is important to all of us for different reasons. I just wonder if the person who has only 10 lbs to lose has the same fears as someone who is gravely overweight. I am terrified to get back to where I was a year ago. I remember it well. I told everyone I was happy the way I was. I was healthy, I had no medical problems. I was good. All the while my little voice was like “you are dying. You are going to just drop dead one day, and your family is going to find you”. Even writing that brings tears to my eyes. It was like living a lie. I knew that what I was doing was going to kill me, but I would lie to my family that all was perfect in my world. I literally didn’t go out or do anything for more than a year. It sucked, to say the least. It’s to bad we can’t record our thoughts and feelings and jump back to a specific time in our life as a reminder to do the right thing
If this is not motivation enough to just get through today, being the healthiest I can be, then I don’t know what is. We’ll worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. Today is the day. Make it count.
Stuff My Brain Thinks 
Good Morning Michele, yes I have that fear of getting any of those diseases. Mom, my father mother had diabetes. My grandfather had Leukemia, my father now in remission for almost 3 years has Lymphoma non- Hodgkin cancer. My father also has high blood pressure and is on blood thinners cause of being overweight himself. My grandmother, mother, father all smoke which I can’t stand to be around but will tolerate it cause they are my family and they will not quit as they tell me. I often sit and wonder why I’m not losing weight like I want too knowing I’m eating about 70 to 80% healthy and thinking omgosh maybe I have cancer of something, maybe an organ isn’t working correctly. I don’t have a lot of weight to lose but I still have it in the bad of my mind everyday. I get scared if i have to go to the doctors afraid they will find something. Then I think of my kids, talk about tearing up. I don’t want to miss out on them growing up and maybe seeing my grandchildren if ever they have them. Yes, I do have the same thoughts & don’t always express my feelings.
I am glad to hear that Sherrie. Not that I want you to worry about all of that stuff but it seems comforting in a way to know that I am not alone in this. That we are all the similar in a lot of ways. I am glad to have you on my side and as a friend. You rock, girl 🙂
It also isn’t just numbers on a scale. It is fitness and health. We all can look around and point a finger at the “heavy” person in the crowd and assume oh they must not be very healthy. However, I know some very thin people that are not healthy either. They don’t get exercise or they eat a diet filled with poor choices, maybe drink too much, take drugs, or smoke like a chimney on a sub zero day. The outside package really is not a true indication of fitness and health. It is just a myth that we have to quit believing. We might not be totally happy with the way we are right now, but when we stop and take a minute to reflect the changes we’ve made so far we are definitely getting better!!
It is hard to watch the number of people you see in the obituary listings that are similar in age or that are facing serious illness and not stop and think about your own mortality. Watching my parents die of illness was also difficult and eye opening.
Trying to find a healthy place for worry is also a challenge. I know that it can be a motivator to get you to change what you don’t like, but it can also drive you nutty!
You got that right, Lisa. I am nutty enough LOL
I am always conscious of my weight and hate the “battle of the bulge”. I am very proud to see your accomplishments and am following you in your battle. You are doing awesome and are and inspiration to others!!!
Thanks Tammy. It is nice to have a sense of support here. I like follow you as well. You are so determined. It rubs off. 🙂