With my new position, I have had a tough time making it in to blog lately. When life becomes stressful it is hard to hang on to the premise of living in the moment. When I woke up this morning I was feeling overwhelmed. I am working constantly, and bringing work home so I can work until bed. I know that everything will calm down at the end of summer, but I cannot help but ask myself if I will make it. I have approximately ninety days before I will see any relief. It’s scary and I know that by thinking ahead I am creating unnecessary anxiety.
Sometimes all I need is to blog out my feelings. It seems to help put things in perspective for me. I knew that with a promotion there would be stress. Stretching and growing into something new is always going to be a little trying. I understand that. I also know that I need to tackle this minute and only this minute. The only minute that matters in the one I am in right now. As long as I remain flexible and in the moment my anxiety will lessen.
Today I am going to go to work and relax. I am going to slow down and do what I have to do. I am not going to worry, because worrying is one the biggest waste of emotions. It contributes nothing and solves nothing. Life is good! I need to remember that. AND tomorrow is Friday. My time is coming. 🙂
I also want to take a moment to thank God for guiding my steps, and the steps of people that want to be good to me. Thank you for opening doors where there were once only walls. Thank you for the understanding that my world evolves perfectly for me, without help from me, and thank you for helping me to see that as long as I am flexible things will work out exactly as they should.
Sometimes I look around at the people who God has given me in my life and wonder what the lesson is. I myself am a very giving person. I mean, I don’t have a lot, but sometimes it doesn’t take much to make a difference in someone’s life. It puzzles me that I have people in my life that are very ungiving to the point of selfishness. It’s hard for me to understand since giving to others makes me feel so good inside. I guess I don’t understand how anyone would not want to experience the wholeness and love I feel from giving. I know that everyone in our lives is a lesson in some way.
I actually don’t see a lot of people in my daily life. I work in an office almost fifty hours a week and come home to see my family. Essentially my work mates and my family are who I come into contact with throughout my week. I have wondered many times how I can make a difference with my schedule. Then it came to me. If we all make a difference within our circle of people. it will surely make a difference in the world. This week I am challenging myself and everyone who reads this to give selflessly to at least one person within our circle. It doesn’t have to be monetary. It can be something as simple as a kind word, or a hug. Find a way to lift someone’s spirits and enjoy the way you feel after doing that. I would love to hear from anyone out there that gives of themselves in some way.
Today I am feeling completely empowered. I know that I can handle whatever comes my way. I also know that God would not put something on my plate that I cannot eat. 🙂
As I look out the window I am amazed at the beauty that is before me. The clouds are intermingling. The dark ones with the white ones. The sun peaking through here and there. Life is going on before me, and I am privileged to be a part of it. I see cars going up the highway and others coming down. Kids are playing, laughing and running around. Signs of summer are coming. I am feeling so free and happy lately. I have learned to take each moment as they come. Thankfully right at a time when my faith would be tested. I hear the “new” voice in my head saying “each difficult moment in stretching you for something bigger and better.” Bring it on!!
I am so Blessed!!