I am finding myself a little down right now. I guess we all have things happen to us that make us question everything in our lives. I know that every situation is a lesson and that forcing it to go one way or another is not the way. I know that I have to let it all play out the way it should. I know that God has my back. I know that he revolves “my” world perfectly for me. I have learned so much about me in the past nine months or so. After pulling myself out of a deep dark place of hopelessness has changed my entire out look on my life. I used to believe that I was not worthy of God’s love or any other as far as that goes.
Now I find myself sad again, but it is different. It is okay and I know it will pass. I know that we are supposed to feel sad so we can be thankful for the joyful times. That’s what my son, Anthony, so wisely tells me. 🙂 He, who councils me in my time of need.
Anyway, now the reason I am blogging. Often times when I get down my mind will attack me. It will turn ultra negative in a heart beat. If I don’t consciously change it, I will certainly end up back in that dark place. I do not ever again, want to feel so alone in the midst of my own family. I have to remember to live in the NOW. Blogging is like therapy to me. It helps me sort out my feelings and to better organize my thoughts. I have one of those run away minds. One that needs monitoring.
I feel so much better already 🙂 It’s funny how just reiterating the things I know are to be true, takes the weight off.