This morning it occurred to me how different I have become over the past couple of years. Although, I may look the same I can guarantee that most of my friends will say they just don’t know me, anymore. I have grown so much. I have no regrets in the way I have lived my life. I have forgiven myself for all of my minor indiscretions. However, these days I would rather read, blog and spend time with my family rather than go out drink and act like a fool.
Over the weekend I received a message from a friend I haven’t seen or heard from in a long time. She asked me to come drink with her. She obviously is unaware that I no longer drink, I thought to myself. So, I sent her a message telling her so. She promptly sent back a message “for real, OMG”. So I sent her a message back explaining that although I no longer drink I still enjoy going out dancing now and again, but got no response. It became apparent right away that maybe I need new friends.
I understand that some of the people I used to be close to might think that I have gone off the deep end. I have become a Spiritual being that trust completely in God. I trust that he would never lead me astray, therefore, I fully allow Him to lead. Whether or not I understand how or why, I still go with it. I know longer struggle to get my own way. I guess I have come to realize that my way is not usually the best way. I believe and understand that God will get me there quicker and easier without my assistance.
I have a purpose to fulfill, and I feel pure comfort knowing that as long as I do my best every day and treat people with the utmost kindness and respect, and I am truly authentic at all times God will guide me through my path with ease.