With the holidays just around the corner I am finding it more and more difficult to resist the sugary treats that seem to be everywhere. I know that in a few weeks it will all be over and life will go back to normal, however I will not allow myself to just eat whatever and whenever, until then. I used to be the type of person that would see an event coming up and say to myself; I’ll just eat whatever I want until it is over and then get back on track. I know that it is that type of thinking that can mean the difference between maintaining my weight and gaining twenty pounds.
No, I will not be doing that this time around. I will maintain my healthy boundaries as best I can and if I have a slip up, so be it. I will not live in the rut of the slip ups any longer. I have learned quite a lot this past year. I have a few really good tools in my tool bag to combat these types of things now. However, this is my first Holiday season since making the big change and I am finding it little more difficult than I could have imagined it would be. I am finding that I am constantly having to remind myself that I am not that girl any longer.
I am no longer a black and white thinker. I know it is no longer all or nothing, there are gray areas in there too. I do not want to be the type of person that eats a piece of candy and then says to herself; Oh well, you already screwed up, you may as well eat whatever you want to for the rest of the day. That kind of thinking doesn’t even make sense, but I used to think that way. I used to believe that just because I had a few hundred calories of “bad” food that I may as well consume a few thousand. Wow, when I spell it out like that it leaves me wondering if I were at all mentally sound during those times in my life.
Today will be a great day. I am going to stay as present as possible. I am going to make it a point to check in with myself throughout the day today to be sure I am in the “now” all day. I am going to be mindful of my healthy boundaries and stay busy. Weekends are particularly tough for me, but I know that I will do just fine. I am going to cook, clean, dance, and read. I am going to be sure that I have plenty of things to do since boredom is my biggest trigger to overeat. I am going to be productive in a fun way today.
I will remember to smile, and love myself all day. I will remember to tell myself how beautiful and kind I am, I will remember that I am human and that mistakes are part of life and that I didn’t get this far by being perfect. I am perfectly imperfect and that is ok with me. 😀