All posts for the month January, 2014

Flat Bread Pizza

Published January 31, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I topped mine lightly with pizza sauce, then fat-free mozzarella, two chopped strips turkey bacon, small amount ground turkey, mushrooms, onion, bell pepper.

Bake for 10 minutes at 400 degrees

This is so much like pizza you will never need to order out again.  It’s amazing!

Remember When?

Published January 31, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I’m back from Curves and I feel better than ever.  I really like Curves, not only for the working out but for the feeling of belonging to something.  A group.  It’s nice to have people with like minds that get together for the betterment of themselves, as I do.  I feel really good today.  I put on my jeans and they were clean and fully dried and I got them on without feeling as though I were going to pull my arms out of the sockets to get them buttoned and zipped.

I know it’s not about weight but it is important that I am going in the right direction and since I don’t weigh myself, my clothes are the only gauge I’ve got.  Well, that and the fact that I feel amazing.  I have loads of energy, and my house and life is very well-organized.  I am also able to easily focus on things, and I feel productive and accomplished on a daily basis.

fullLet me take a second to remind myself where I came from.  It never hurts to take the time to remember where we all came from.  You see that smile on the face of the girl in the middle?  You see how forced it looks?  That is because she was dying inside.  She felt as though life had dealt her a bad hand, and that she had to live with.  She was miserable.  she created her own suffering.  Smiling on the outside while torturing herself on the inside.

I remember beating myself up constantly for being the way that I was.  I was a fake back then.  I remember telling people that I was happy with myself.  That I didn’t need to lose weight or be thin to be happy.  I was not only lying to them, but I was lying to myself.  My feet hurt and burned on the inside from the pressure.  I smoked, drank and ate everything under the sun.  I pretty much treated myself like a garbage can.  I mean, why not, since the thoughts I was feeding myself were garbage.  I literally manifested that body through my mind.  I was getting exactly what I was asking for.

My favorite thing to call myself was a stupid fat-ass.  It makes me want to cry knowing the way I treated me.  I love me.  How could I do that to myself?  I am a precious gift from God.  I deserve so much better.  It took me years to figure this out.  It wasn’t until I hit my lowest point that I was able to come out on the other side a new person.  A person that would not stand for that berating talk any longer.  I began introducing loving thoughts into my mind.  I slowly got rid of all the other garbage I was telling myself and replaced it with kind, caring words of love and compassion.

Once that happen I started acting on the outside the way I was on the inside.  It then became very important to me that I treat myself with dignity and respect.  That I begin to love and honor the only body that I was given.  The vehicle that God had loaned me to get from birth to death.  I began to understand that he had blessed with this body for a reason and I was going to learn how to take care of it so it could take care of me.20140131-073003.jpg

The hardest part of my journey was changing my mind.  The rest just seemed to follow on its own.  Now, I love me.  I love me so much that being good to me is important.  Taking care of Michele is a priority now.  I no longer drink, smoke or eat garbage.  I am so grateful to God for all of the life lessons.  Without them and the awakening that came through them I don’t know where I would be today.  He has given me my life back.  The very life I had begged him to take so many times before.

Life is full of teachable moments, and I am excited to continue to learn from them each and every day I am alive.  It all makes sense to me now.  I love my life.  I honor my body by feeding it with nutritious foods and giving it the exercise it needs to thrive.  See the smile on that face?  That’s real and genuine.  It’s not forced.  It’s me!!

In its Due Time

Published January 30, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

the-shining-frozen-jack-nicholsonHome from Curves!  My mind is a little over active today.  There is literally no reason for this.  I am going to have to make a conscious effort to be aware of my breath today.  Aside from not feeling well yesterday’s “less talk, more listen” went very well.  I am thinking today will have to be more of the same.  It is never good to over think, therefore it will be my intention to bring myself back into the “now” several times an hour.  My plan is to do this, simply by noticing the inhalation and exhalation of my breath throughout the day.  Mini meditations as I would like to call them.

I think most of us up here in the bitter cold, north country may have a touch of cabin fever.  We are used to the winter months, but this winter has been, by far, not usual in any way.  The temps have been the coldest we’ve seen in years with little to no break.  If we get above zero at all it feels like a spring day to us now.  I, myself, am dying to see the day that I can walk out onto my front porch and see the color green again.  For the smell of fresh-cut grass to fill the air would be better than baked apple pie at this point.

I know there is an end in sight, that is what is getting me through it, quite frankly.  The most time I have spent outside since Thanksgiving has been my three-minute ride to and from work.  This from a girl who found her love of nature this past summer.  I miss my old friends, the trees.  I miss walking to and from work feeling the breeze gently whip through my hair.  Oh God!  It’s no wonder my mind is on active mode these days.  Here I am longing for something that is out of the realm of possibility now.  I am supposed to revel in the now, not yesterday, not tomorrow.  What am I doing?

It’s a good thing I like to make a lesson out of life because this is a good one.  I need to stop!  Spring and summer will be here in its due time, not one minute before.  I shall move forward and embrace the rest of this season.  I will find ways to find the beauty in it.  I will take a step back and be present, because that is where life is, in this moment right now.  Memories are a lovely place to visit but we cannot get ourselves stuck there.  It is time to move forward with my day, go to work, enjoy the peace and contentment of my office, and enjoy the company of my cohorts.

I’m Getting Healthier; Mind, Body and Soul

Published January 29, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I am home from Curves.  My mind wants to tell me that I am fatter today.  I know that, that cannot be true.  I may have some water retention due to my period but I cannot possibly be fatter.  I am eating good and working out regularly.  Thank goodness I know better than to believe every thought that I have.  I know that there’s a little pain in the ass in there, that I call my ego that would love nothing more than to push me down whenever it can.  Well, I’m on to you buddy!  I reject that negative thought.  I am not getting fatter.  I am getting healthier; mind, body and soul.  There is nothing more irritating to the ego than to be rejected.  Haha!  This is my life, my mind, and my body, and I will think only the most empowering thoughts possible.14073817555412386XrOwMeKcc

I have worked so hard to change all of those negative thoughts that I used to carry around.  The thoughts that had me pushing three hundred pounds and depressed beyond belief.  It’s taken a long time to become self-aware enough to catch them in the act.  Even today, after almost two years of training, if I am not careful they will creep back in and try to take me back to that miserable, unhealthy girl I once was.  I can only be thankful that through my meditation practice and my spiritual growth that I’ve learned to spot the negative narrative almost instantly and change it.

I have learned that our mind will lie and manipulate us if we let it.  Believe it or not, our mind can and will be our worst enemy if we allow it to be.  I am grateful that I have learned how to recognize and stop those thoughts in their tracks.  I control my mind, not the other way around.

Take a stand today, say NO when your mind wants to beat you up.  Recognize that thought and change it.  You can do this.  Believe me if I can do it anyone can.  One thought at a time.  It gets easier and easier with practice.  Don’t you think you are worth it?  Because I do!

In A World Where You Can Be Anything, Be Yourself

Published January 28, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Question symbol over white background. computer generated imageYou know the old saying “ask, and you shall receive”?  Well, today I have decided to ask for signs that my angels and spirit guides are close to me today.  I am going to be on the look out today for any and all signals that they are with me.  I know that I am never alone.  I am aware that God sends us several angels and spirit guides to be with us throughout our journey here on earth, therefore I would love nothing more than to feel a little closer and more aware of their presence.

I have gotten a lot better at trusting my intuition, which to me, is my guidance from God.  Now I would like to become even more in tune.  At this point in my life I am doing exactly what I want to do, which is pretty new for me.  For many years I was driven by guilt which lead me to be a people pleaser.  Living that way got me nowhere but miserable.  Now, I live for me, not selfishly I might add.  By living for me I mean that I do what I want to do, not what I am guilt-ed into doing.  In fact, I don’t do guilt at all.  By living this way I am actually a blessing to those that love me and that I love.

If I spend time with you it is because I want to, not because I feel obligated to.  Whatever it is I do I do out of love, not guilt or shame.  Changing this about myself has done wonders for my life.  I am finally figuring out who I am.  Before I was so confused, I thought I stood for things but it turned out I only stood for whatever I thought other people wanted me to stand for.  It was an extremely hard, and there were times that I would feel like a liar because I would believe in things only to make others happy.  Now I do stand for things and if other’s don’t agree, that’s OK.  Life is all about diversity.

That been said, I am happy with my life and am doing exactly as I want to do, but I feel as though I should be doing so much more.  I feel as though I could be of service in some way, which I am hoping to get the guidance to do so, some time soon.  I know that writing is a passion of mine, I have been doing it most of my life, but is this where my service lies?  Is simply blogging enough?  I suppose it is for now since I feel absolutely content and at peace.  What more could I ask for?

It is What It is

Published January 27, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Outside my front door

I’m just about ready for work.  I’m putting the finishing touches to my chicken and then I am off.  How amazing life is.  We have a choice to complain or surrender to what is and I choose to surrender to what is.  So it’s snowing.  My first reaction this morning was to complain and allow it to make me miserable.  Well, I am not going to do that.  It is my choice to live where I live, therefore it is what it is.  So, it’s snowing.  Surprise it’s winter time in upstate New York, what the heck else would it be doing.

I choose to go to work.  Turn on my favorite Pandora station, make a hot cup of tea, and methodically plug away at my duties for the day.  At least when I look out the window I will see the beauty of the fresh snow fall knowing I only have to go out in it to get to work and to get home.  Other than that I will be inside and warm.

May you all be inside and warm as well.  ♥

Fake it Until You Make it!! ♥

Published January 26, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

first-love-yourself-1Getting ready to prep some meals for the week.  I have been up for hours.  I have meditated, showered, prettied up, and finished my audio book on The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz.  I’ve turned on the some music to get me in the grove.

My plan this fine morning is to make baked meatballs and marinara, turkey burger with mushrooms, onions and fat-free cheese, and probably some chicken salad.  I am on day 8 of living without sugar in my life.  I would say I am amazed, but I am not.  I knew I could do it.  I took the time to put together a solid strategy and went for it and success is most definitely in my future.

I am feeling particularly loved and adored this morning.  By whom, you ask?  By me, I reply 😉  It is not selfish to love oneself.  Selfishness is to be a burden on another and if you love yourself you cannot possibly be a burden to anyone.  You will be a blessing.

To use self-rejection is to be selfish, because if you loath yourself you are likely to cause pain to those that you love and that love you.  Decide today to look in the mirror and revel in the beauty before you.  Recognize the creativity within, and deeply love it.  Even if at first you don’t believe, fake it until you make it.

May you all have a blessed Sunday!

With much love ♥


The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz

Published January 25, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

It’s very early and I am up.  Sleeping wasn’t exactly an option so I figured what the heck, I may as well get up and do something.  Being that it is just before four in the morning I don’t have a whole heck of a lot to do besides write.  I have recently started the book on YouTube called The Four Agreements Don Miguel Ruiz.  I suppose I could listen to that for a bit.

My plan for the day is to Take Brandon to work at 7:15 or so and then go to Curves.  After Curves I am going up to have breakfast with mom and then out to buy some workout pants from my mommy for my birthday.  Then it’s home to do the laundry and some puttering around the house.  Since it’s so freaking cold outside I am not planning on going out of the house very much over the weekend.

Boy oh boy, how I miss summer time.  I miss walking the trails and being out in nature.  I miss the connection I felt to all things when Rog and I would quietly creep through the woods hoping to see a glimpse of a chipmunk or a turtle basking in the rays of the son.  Soon, very soon, I must remind myself.  🙂

I spent quite a lot of time with this book this morning and I must say; I feel like a better person for it.  I am going to put these four agreements into effect in my life ASAP.  I am going to move toward personal freedom by being the best I can be.  By honoring God with my life.  These four agreements are simple to understand, but will take some consciousness to institute.  Today I am honoring the four agreements.

  1. Be impeccable with your word-Our words can either destroy a life or save a life.  Our words have the ability to start wars or end them.  It is my promise to choose my words carefully from here on our.  I intend to spread love and joy with my words.
  2. Don’t take anything personally-This agreement has been one I have adopted into my life over the past couple of years.  Once I realized that another persons words and actions had nothing to do with me and everything to do with them I no longer took anything personally.
  3. Do not make assumptions-We cannot possibly know what another person is thinking or feeling.  If I am unclear I will ask questions.  I will not make assumptions any longer.  This agreement essentially feeds off the second agreement to not take anything personally.
  4. Always do your best-This agreement puts the first three agreements into action.  I will do my best at all times and if I am not feeling up to par or that I may have not done so great in this moment, I will simply start again in the next moment.

I have now created the intent to honor God by honoring my own life.  I will honor Him by doing what is right for myself and for those around me.  What an amazing opportunity I have been given by being guided to the audio version of this most amazing life changing book.  I hope that you all take the time to listen.  You will be glad that you did.

Affirm What You Want and Watch Your Life Change

Published January 24, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

7392Feeling particularly awesome today.  I am tired, yes, but that doesn’t take away from the fact that I have been six days without that nasty sugar in my body.  I am still not sleeping all that well but I know that is to come.  Everything in due time.

Saying my affirmations at bedtime has strengthened them to a whole new level.  Not only that, but it seems that if I want unwavering determination to get up and go to the gym first thing in the morning all I have to do is state it before bed and I am up and raring to go.

I am on to something here, people.  Whatever it is you want for your life you can have it simply by affirming it before bed and reaffirming it through out the day.  It is not rocket science.  It’s all a mental game.  Be positive and believe and manifest the life you have always dreamed of.

If you are a smoker and want to quit simply affirm; “I resist smoking cigarettes because that is what I choose to do.  I love my body and will do whatever is necessary to keep it balanced, centered and healthy at all times.  I am in perfect health”  Then release those affirmations into the universe and watch as they come to fruition.

First, Simply affirm it before bed and throughout the day and Second, continue on as you normally would.  Don’t “try” to quit.  Just believe that you will and you will.  And it will be easier than you could have ever imagined it to be.  The desire to smoke will simply leave you.

Be persistent and use your affirmations daily and believe in yourself and it will happen.

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