This next chapter; Ego: The Current State of Humanity in the book A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle is all about the content and the structure of the ego. The more I learn about the ego the more I am able to recognize it within myself. Yesterday, I realized that as much as I try not to take offense when someone shows me up, proves me wrong, or calls me out on a mistake, I still do it. I caught myself first thing yesterday morning becoming defensive (internally, of course) when a co-worker seemed to correct me every time I spoke. I didn’t say anything I just mentally decided not to speak and in doing so it allowed me time to analyze what was happening inside of me.
I realized almost immediately that my ego had been bruised, that is was not that big of a deal, really. My ego was making more out of it than it needed to be. I realized right away that it is OK to be wrong. I remembered this quote from one of my spiritual teachers, Wayne Dyer that states; if you have a choice to be right, or to be kind, always pick kind. Therefore, I got over it and moved on with my day without feeling offended or feeling the need to defend my stance on the subject. I actually felt compassion for the other person, realizing that maybe they had a greater need to be right than I did, and I allowed the situation to pass through me.
The rest of the day went smoothly. I felt peaceful and joyful for duration of my day. I guess my ego decided to keep quiet after that because the rest of the day was spent being quite present. I practiced being present while washing my hands, taking in the smell of the soap and the way the bubbles rolled around my hands. I practiced being present while doing tasks at work that I would normally find mindless. I was aware of every key stroke and every number that I entered and found myself entertained by this. While most days I fight boredom, yesterday, I wasn’t bored at all.
I came home from work and watched an hour of television, cooked my dinner, and ironed my pants, all with the most present attention I think I have ever had. I didn’t find the need to munch after dinner, nor did I need a bed time snack. By the time I laid my head on the pillow, I felt a deep sense of peace and contentment. I slept like a baby. Today I intend on doing much of the same. I am going to simply pay attention to the ramblings of my ego and check it when I need to. I am excited to see what the day holds.
I am now off to the gym to enjoy my much-needed body movement for the day. I hope you all have a nice day today. I hear the temperature is going to gradually increase by the end of the week, nature here I come. ☺