I have to get this off my chest. I mean, if I can’t rant here, then where? Have you ever wanted someone to simply understand and respect your point of view, only to have their point of view crammed down your throat? How hard is it for people to have a mutual respect for differences? I get that we all can’t agree all of the time. I completely respect the fact that people will worship the way they see fit, but is it too much to ask to have that same respect and understanding returned? I actually find myself agreeing or going along to lessen the conflict. It’s not worth it to me to stand up for what I believe in when what I believe in is simply love, compassion and a respect for differences.
I don’t read the bible, nor do I go to church. I spent six years in catholic school as a child and I cherish those memories. I have a wonderful, personal relationship with God but I can’t say with certainty that I believe every story in the bible. I know how stories go and these have been translated so many times that I cannot be 100% sure that they are true. Does it really matter if I believe the stories in the bible? I practice spirituality not religion. Most of the bible is filled with violence and persecution, while my God is filled with love and compassion. The two don’t mesh well for me.
I don’t calculate sins or point them out in those around me. I don’t see people as lesser than I, if they choose to fall in love with someone of the same-sex. I don’t look down on people who divorce or fall in love with someone outside of their marriage. Why? Because it is not my concern. It is non of my business. I can’t know the circumstances of their decisions and I don’t need to. God loves us in spite of our short comings. He knows every mistake we will make before we make it and we are forgiven in the same way.
Simply being a part of a church and reading the bible is not going to make you better than anyone else. We are all God’s children. No one is better than the other. We are all damaged in our own way and we make our choices based on that damage. If we are to live a God realized life, shouldn’t we, not only see ourselves in all people but find love for them as well? Isn’t that what God would want?
I know that people can only give you what they’ve got, and that I should not take it personally if they cannot see my side of things or do not want to but it seems that this happens more in family than it does with strangers or acquaintances. I wonder why that is? Why family is not as accepting as we would like. It makes it difficult. If I were to be honest here, I would have to say that I worry more about what my family thinks of me than anyone in the world and they judge me the most.
I would love to say that when visiting my family, this subject is off the table, but I can’t. It is a passion for certain family members, so from now on I will listen and respect their need to express it. I will save my point of view for you all here. I have always found it easier to state my thoughts and feelings through words on a page anyway.
I hope you all have a fabulous Sunday. Be blessed and stay warm. ☺