I just had an AHA moment. For those of you who aren’t aware of what an aha moment is, it is spirit recognizing spirit. It is when you hear something or become aware of something that resonates so deeply that is touches your soul. Anyway, I have been feeling really amazing lately. I mean the kind of amazing that allows causeless joy and bliss to bubble up from your core unexpectedly.
On the way home from the gym this morning I felt this feeling of love and complete and utter bliss well up from inside of me, it was so strong it nearly took my breath away and my first thought was; “wow that was amazing, what am I doing that is causing this to happen?” And it was right at that moment that I realized that what I am doing is following my intuition. You know, that still small voice that tries to steer you in the right direction, just before the louder voice tells you not to listen and do what you want. Yea, that still small voice, like I said is my intuition and that much louder voice, is that of my ego.
It became clear this morning that since keeping check on my ego and ultimately following my intuition lately that I have found the bliss that I truly deserve. Let me give an example that everyone can relate to: There is a cosmic brownie in my pantry. Now, I love cosmic brownies. They are sweet and chocolatey and have little candies on top. Who wouldn’t love one of those, right?
Last night I thought about eating it. I even checked the calories and found there was 500 calories in the whole thing. Immediately my intuition said, “don’t do it, all of that sugar is not good for your body.” So, I put it back and went back to the living room. As soon as my butt hit the chair the louder, more forceful voice of my ego came through and said: “Oh just do it. It’s only 500 calories. You’ve done excellent today. Five hundred calories doesn’t even equal a pound, what can it hurt.”
Thankfully, I didn’t listen to my ego and had a small bowl of popcorn instead. However, I know my ego quite well and it is not about to give up. It knows that brownie is still in the cupboard and it is going to try its damnedest to wear me down. Thankfully I am aware of it and I will not let this happen. That brownie is out of here today!! I will let my family know that it has to either be eaten before I get home from work or it is going into the trash.
I feel like I have just scored a point for Michele!! Intuition, one… Ego, zero…