I trust in you, God. I know that you can do leaps and bounds over what I can do. I am only to be present and excited for what the future holds. Do I know what that means or what I will be doing? No… I am completely uncertain as to where my path is going to take me, but I can say this, I trust it will be amazing. I will not manipulate it in any way. I am simply to be observant and still. I am to build a bridge between the Human that I am and the Being that I am.
Contrary to my ego’s belief that “it’s just to hard”, I know that it is not hard. It is different. It is living purposefully. Yesterday, was the first day that I made it my intention and purpose to be aware of the observer in me. By having this connection I was able to keep my mind from running away with itself. I was able to keep that sense of deep inner peace with me while I performed my responsibilities of the day.
Being that yesterday was the end of the month at the office, it was extremely hectic. I found that two or three times during the day a feeling of stress began to rise within me, but being that I was connected to the spirit in me I was able to let those moments pass. It took less than a minute to feel, it recognize it, and shift away from it. LESS THAN A MINUTE!! This from a girl who was chronically stressed for most of her life. A girl who would let some small challenge leave her reeling out of control for weeks.
I also found myself needing less food. I didn’t think about it. Being present seemed to curb my appetite which I had a feeling it would. I mean I am self-aware enough to recognize that I eat for other reasons beside being hungry. I am an emotional eater as well as an empathetic eater, meaning I will eat my feelings and yours too.
Last night before bed I had no thoughts of eating until I heard my ego pipe up and say; You haven’t had much food today, you are going to be hungry in the night. Again being that I was so in touch with the God within me I was able to calmly dismiss it as a judgement. Something I am working to take out of my life. I took a deep breath and returned to that place of peace, and you know what? I didn’t get hungry in the night ☺ Surprise… My ego was wrong….
I woke feeling alive and excited for what today is going to bring. I am excited for the possibilities. ♥