I realized this morning that my quest for consciousness is something I must consciously do. I actually have to put thought behind it and be ultra aware of my thoughts. Slowly but surely I have evolved from a deeply unconscious person to a person that is now self-aware and I did it by setting my intentions on it.
I am now aware of the thoughts that are occurring in the background of my life. The thoughts that can and will cause deep bouts of depression if left uncensored. I imagine that most of my old conditioned thinking is a build up of many, many past situations and challenges, and my perception of them. Life changed dramatically when I first heard that I didn’t have to believe or follow every thought. That thoughts are the ego’s way of taking care of us in it’s own destructive, sometimes abusive way.
Hearing that simple statement from, I believe, Eckhart Tolle, created a separation between thought and awareness for me. It became the opening I needed to change my life. Slowly but surely I would hear a negative thought come into my mind. I was aghast at the mean things I was telling myself. I also came to realize it was all lies. It is absolutely clear to me today why I was so depressed. Why wouldn’t I be, considering I was living with a constant badgering so harsh I wouldn’t dare speak the words out loud.
Anyway, my point is, if I don’t get up each and every day, meditate and set my intentions, I will once again be sucked into life’s craziness. Without even realizing it, I could become unconscious once again. I have been there and done that, no thank you. I am taking back my life.
So today I intend on embracing the uncertainty. I am excited at all the new adventures that will come before me. I intend to be conscious enough to see the signs of the universe or God. To be aware enough to notice the synchronistic moments that will happen today every day.
I am going to continue to use positive affirms because when we have desires and intentions the universe rises up to help us realize them.