Last night the sweetest husband in the world got a gig for Friday night for a couple of hours. For those of you who don’t know what Roger does, he is a drummer. He has retired so many times over the years, and yet again he is coming out of retirement to play to do this gig.
I was first attracted to Roger because of his talent. I just love artists of all kinds. I am drawn to their creativity, however, I am simply not into the bar scene anymore. I dread this gig because I know he wants me to go. In an earlier post I exclaimed how I only do what I want to do these days, but I guess that is not entirely true. There are times I still do things I don’t want to do to make the people I love happy.
This is different from being the people pleaser I used to be. I spent so many years of my life not really knowing who I was. I always went along with whatever everyone wanted. I didn’t even think for myself. I carried the thoughts and beliefs of the people I most wanted to fit in with.
I remember shortly after I began my meditation practice when I became more in touch with who I truly am. I was shocked to find out who I was, or lack there of. I realized that I literally had no identity. I had no idea even what I liked or didn’t like, My identity was a little bit of this, from one person and a little bit of that, from another. It took several years of writing to finally figure out who I am, and guess what? I am a pretty terrific person. Shocker…… I actually love me.
It turns out, I am a little kooky, but I’m fun. I have some way out beliefs that most of my friends and family don’t get and that’s OK. I don’t have to be like everyone else to fit in. I have found that people like me in spite of my wackiness. If I am to be completely honest, I am not one of those people who even wants to sit in the shadows. I want to be out front, standing up for myself and for what I believe.
That been said, let’s all stand out today. Let’s show the world that we are not part of the cookie cutter mold that some believe they need to be.
We are one of a kind, baby. Let’s start acting like it.