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Can You Say No Without Guilt?

Published April 20, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks
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I am a firm believer that we show people how to treat us.  Do you have boundaries in place for your life?  For many years I never had, but as I learned to love myself I found that I needed boundaries, not only boundaries for myself but boundaries for others.

I needed to know what I would, and would not tolerate from the people in my life, and what I would, and would not tolerate from myself.  It took a little time and a lot of digging to figure out just what I would allow.

It wasn’t easy, but I learned to say no without guilt.  That was a big one for me since for most of my life I was a people pleaser.  The first few times I literally felt a spark in my sacral chakra.  I was, admittedly, a little over whelmed but when no one died and life did’t crumble before me, I realized it would be OK, and it was, over time it got easier and easier.  Now the word, no, is just another word to me.

There are so many people in my life that have an aversion to the word no, and because of that they are taken advantage of and are under-appreciated.  I see this in the work place far too much.  There are some who drop the ball and others who pick it up.  I have to tell you from experience it is not the one picking it up that is catered too.  It is generally not the one that goes the extra mile that gets the raise.  Why?  Because it is expected.  It’s as simple as that.

I have clear, set boundaries these days.  I don’t feel the need to do anything I don’t want to do.  This does not at all mean that I am selfish.  In fact, I am more selfless than I have ever been in my life.  I am just more discerning now.  I am more choosy about who I help, and what I do.  It all comes back to the body, If I have a negative feeling about it in any way, I simply do not do it.  It has to feel good for me to be on board.  I have to feel a sense of peace about the situation to move forward.  I trust myself enough to know what is good for me.When-you-know-better-you-do-better

Life without boundaries is terrible.  It’s all tense and thick.  It’s stressful, who needs that?  I struggled against everything in my life for many years.  It wasn’t until I discovered boundaries that I realized maintaining them would be what would give me the confidence and strength to stand up and Be me, to stand up and reclaim my life.  Setting boundaries is what brought me back to who I am meant to be.

My very first healthy boundary was a daily meditation practice.  I committed to it and I am glad I did.  Shortly following the start of my meditation practice a few more healthy boundaries popped up and they were to eat cleanly, get the proper amount of sleep, and to be hydrated every day.

I added more and more boundaries until I felt as though I was living authentically as myself.  I do what feels right for me and on the flip side I don’t do anything that doesn’t.  I don’t feel bad or make excuses for my decisions either, there is nothing to defend, I am simply doing what is right for me.

I have come to realize that I am as important, if not more than, anyone else out there.  I have to take care of me, so I can take care of others.  I used to believe that I could hate myself whole, but now I know better.

And as the great Maya Angelou said “when you know better you do better” 

❤  Michele

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Another Aha Moment

Published October 1, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I realized this morning that my quest for consciousness is something I must consciously do.  I actually have to put thought behind it and be ultra aware of my thoughts.  Slowly but surely I have evolved from a deeply unconscious person to a person that is now self-aware and I did it by setting my intentions on it.

I am now aware of the thoughts that are occurring in the background of my life.  The thoughts that can and will cause deep bouts of depression if left uncensored.  I imagine that most of my old conditioned thinking is a build up of many, many past situations and challenges, and my perception of them.  Life changed dramatically when I first heard that I didn’t have to believe or follow every thought.  That thoughts are the ego’s way of taking care of us in it’s own destructive, sometimes abusive way.

Hearing that simple statement from, I believe, Eckhart Tolle, created a separation between thought and awareness for me.  It became the opening I needed to change my life.  Slowly but surely I would hear a negative thought come into my mind.  I was aghast at the mean things I was telling myself.  I also came to realize it was all lies.  It is absolutely clear to me today why I was so depressed.  Why wouldn’t I be, considering I was living with a constant badgering so harsh I wouldn’t dare speak the words out loud.

Anyway, my point is, if I don’t get up each and every day, meditate and set my intentions, I will once again be sucked into life’s craziness.  Without even realizing it, I could become unconscious once again.  I have been there and done that, no thank you.  I am taking back my life.

So today I intend on embracing the uncertainty.  I am excited at all the new adventures that will come before me.  I intend to be conscious enough to see the signs of the universe or God.  To be aware enough to notice the synchronistic moments that will happen today every day.

I am going to continue to use positive affirms because when we have desires and intentions the universe rises up to help us realize them.

Mother’s Day Vision Board

Published May 13, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

20140513-050335.jpgI hope all you moms out there had a wonderful Mother’s Day.  I know I did.  The weather was amazing and I was able to put together my vision board.  The vision board that has been carefully constructed with the direction of Colette Baron-Reid.  I am very happy with the way it turned out and of course wanted to share it with you all.

 

Love…… What else is there?

Published May 9, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I haven’t felt much like writing lately.  Life has been amazing.  I have been reading and walking, meditating and preparing to make a new vision board.

As my last post stated I am reading a book called Remembering the Future by Colette Baron-Reid.  I am feel very connected to this author.  She greatly changed my life last year with her book “The Weight-Loss Program for People Who Feel to Much.  I was forever changed through many, many journal writings.  I filled seven books in 2013 alone.  These books are filled with my journey to become a newer happier more peaceful me.

love_me-2387I was able to take a close look at my life and how my choices and thoughts were affecting my body, my happiness, my overall way of life.  I am still over-weight, but I love me.  I truly and forever deeply love myself.  It took a lot to get here, but I made it.  I make mistakes every day but in the end I forgive myself.  I express my love and compassion for myself and move forward.  I know longer taunt myself relentlessly for mistakes and I don’t belittle myself .  I show myself the respect I would give any other person in my path.  Rarely do I even feel guilty.  It may pop up for a second but then I am remember I don’t do “guilt”  it’s a waste of time and serves no purpose, much like worry…..  Both emotions are fruitless.

It has changed me.  I have learned to treat myself with kindness even after over-eating sometimes.  I am amazing, and God has given me another day to do better.  The best apology we can ever give past mistakes is how we live now, and the only way is love.  Love will conquer!  But it has to start with loving ourselves first.  Once that is mastered everything around becomes more peaceful.  Life becomes joyful.

Anyway, I am excited to get my new vision board done this weekend.  Colette described an interesting new outlook on creating and manifesting, using a vision board, since I am a lover of the vision board I am of course very excited to get started.

I will post a picture of it when it is done.

Happy Friday all.  It felt good to write again.  ☺

With much love, Michele ♥

Warrior Flow

Published April 29, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

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This appeared on my Facebook this morning and I found it worth sharing.  It came from the Facebook page of the Warrior Flow.  This page has a lot of great uplifting posts.  I enjoy receiving their message every day, so I thought I would share it with you all.  I hope you have an enjoyable Tuesday, no matter what you are doing feel the joy from the core of your being.

With much Love

Michele ♥

My Life Energy is Love

Published April 24, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Before meditation this morning I want to declare my most deepest desire, that being; to be at peace once and for all from eating unnecessarily.  I want to relinquish the hold that food has on me.  I desire to be free of the need to stuff my emotions and live at peace and contentedness from depth of my soul.

And now, I shall meditate.

Today’s meditation is called Activating love and is day 11 of the 21 Day Meditation Experience.  The centering thought for today is My Life Energy is Love.  I have provided the link to the Meditation Experience page, because there is still time for those who have not yet signed up.  Anyway, that been said, I am going to spend my day focusing on my intention and desire that I stated earlier.  I have come to realize that I have plenty of desires for my life but this one is the corner-stone of my being.

images (1)I want nothing more than to find peace with my ongoing food issues.  I no longer want to create a resistance for food, simply allowing it to be something that serves to nourish my body.  I want it to be something that allows only for the sustenance of my being.  I will no longer state what I do not want, only what I want, as the universe cannot distinguish between the two.  I will speak only positively and with love.

I will enjoy the body that God has given me and will nourish it and move it in his honor.  I will do what is right by me today and always.  I will surrender to what is in life and allow it to show me the way.  I will use all situations as a tool to teach me better for the next.  I will show appreciation for who I am and what I have in life because ultimately, appreciation is love.

I will understand that we are all different and it is in those differences that we find our greatest lessons.  We are all made exactly as we should be, as God makes no mistakes.  We are all masterpieces that He has made out of love.  Each and every one of us are His masterpiece, therefore I will be sensitive to the masterpiece in myself as well as those moving before me.  I will open my eyes to love, compassion and understanding because that is how it is supposed to be.flowers_love-wide

I will take the time to be fully present while other’s are talking to me, and I will take the time to be present with myself.  I also know that awareness and presence is all that is needed to bring about the peace I so desire, therefore I shall take the time to bring that awareness and presence into my daily life.  Finally, I believe that it is my responsibility to be the presence in all situations I encounter, therefore I will do my best to take this responsibility seriously.

With much love

Michele ♥

 

 

 

 

Awareness and the Activated Pain-Body

Published April 23, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I just finished chapter 5 in A New Earth.  This chapter is all about the pain-body.  There was a lot about this chapter that resonated with me.  First of all, my recent sickness.  I am not one to become ill.  I am normally pretty healthy person, however looking back to what happened just before becoming sick I realized that a situation arose that activated my pain-body which allowed for a lot of negative thoughts and emotions.

eckhart-tolle-painIn the book Eckhart talks about this very point.  He speaks of something called a psychic parasite.  This psychic parasite comes in to play when our dominant pain-body becomes active and we unconsciously allow it to take over.  Allowing it to bring about negativity into our lives.  This very thing is what the pain-body feeds on.  When I became negative and allowed for the negative story to play out over and over for a few days it weakened me.

It caused my immune system to break down just enough to allow the sickness in.  Now that I am aware of this, I am going to be more conscious the next time it happens.  All I have to do is be present with it and allow whatever it is that has caused my unhappiness to be.  That is it.  There is nothing tricky about it.  I only have to allow it to be without suppressing it or trying to push it away.

This goes along with something else Eckhart has said in the past; “Whatever you resist, persist”.  Therefore the next time I have a negative emotion I am only to allow it to be.  I am only to be present with that emotion instead of telling and retelling a story about this emotion  Rethinking or retelling a story only keeps the emotion alive, and unfortunately our bodies cannot differentiate between thoughts and actual events, meaning that if a bad situation arises and we rethink that situation over and over again, the body thinks the situation is actually happening.  Doing this only creates unnecessary stress on the body, which could very well create illness.

So here I have it.  Just another form of presence I need to bring into my life.  I love working on me.  I have become one of my favorite projects.  ☺

With much love

Michele ♥

 

 

Day 2: Finding Happiness

Published April 15, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Oh yeah, another day!  What could be sweeter.  When I got up this morning is was 57 degrees outside.  The birds are chirping away and the sun has yet to come up.  What an amazing gift.  It is bound to be a wonderful day.  I have absolutely nothing planned.  Today I intend on winging it.  The best plan, to have no plan at all, to simply flow from situation to situation, just being.  I have no expectations and there is no place I would rather be than in this moment.

quotes-of-the-day-life-7-300x300Knowing that neither the past or the future exist now, leaves life wide open for peace and contentedness.  This mornings meditation was amazing and left me feeling “Ah inspired“.  Today’s centering thought “I am the source of unlimited happiness” and believe it or not, after a short twenty minutes, I am exuding happiness.  I am ready to go to the gym and kick-start my day.  I am ready to enjoy each and ever moment as it unfolds.

Remember, it is the ego that creates a need for over indulgence, and the ego cannot thrive with awareness so take time today to be aware of every moment.  Take time to notice your breath and feel the inner aliveness in your hands.  Notice the tingle of the inner vibrations of your body and your need for more will diminish.  Take time to check in with yourself throughout the day to be sure your not projecting your thoughts to the past or the future.  Neither of these exist in the present moment and going there will only create unnecessary stress.

Treat your body with dignity and respect and it will become your greatest ally~Deepak Chopra

 

 

Blah Blah Blah, My Intentions and The Law of Giving

Published April 3, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks
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Yesterday’s interview went well.  The gentlemen that interviewed me seemed very genuine and nice.  The job was not offered in any way, however they did ask me what I was looking for as far as compensation, and I was honest enough to tell them what I was making at my current place of employment and that I am looking for an increase.  They said they would discuss it and get back with me in a week or so.

Since then, my mind wants to try to replay the entire conversation, analyzing me and everything I said.  I know this is my ego just trying to figure out if I fit in, but what I want to say to my ego is, bug off!  It doesn’t matter if I fit in.  I didn’t rehearse what I was going to say because I wanted everything to come from an authentic place.  I didn’t over think it because I didn’t want to appear nervous or needy.  After all, I am not needy.  I have a job with a company I care a great deal for and if this other company doesn’t feel I am a good fit for them, it is nothing personal.  It simply is, what it is.  That been said, I am off to enjoy my day.

28-Pedicel_flowers-008My intentions

I intend on taking the time to focus on my inner aliveness.  I intend on paying attention to the old conditioning of my mind and ridding it of the unnecessary thought patterns that continue to creep in.  I intend on spending my day being present with whatever it is I am doing and enjoy the excitement of whatever today brings.  I also, intend on giving my full attention to anyone who needs me or anyone who simply has something to say to me.  Finally, I intend on going with the flow knowing all well, that I will know exactly what to do, when I need to do it with the help of my intuition.

The Law of Giving

  • Listen and you will be heard
  • Understand and you will be understood
  • Love and you will be loved
  • Be compassionate and you will receive compassion
  • Bless and you shall be blessed

 

 

☺ Booyah ☺

Published April 2, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

trustYourIntuitionI just had an AHA moment.  For those of you who aren’t aware of what an aha moment is, it is spirit recognizing spirit.  It is when you hear something or become aware of something that resonates so deeply that is touches your soul.  Anyway, I have been feeling really amazing lately.  I mean the kind of amazing that allows causeless joy and bliss to bubble up from your core unexpectedly.

On the way home from the gym this morning I felt this feeling of love and complete and utter bliss well up from inside of me, it was so strong it nearly took my breath away and my first thought was; “wow that was amazing, what am I doing that is causing this to happen?” And it was right at that moment that I realized that what I am doing is following my intuition.  You know, that still small voice that tries to steer you in the right direction, just before the louder voice tells you not to listen and do what you want.  Yea, that still small voice, like I said is my intuition and that much louder voice, is that of my ego.

It became clear this morning that since keeping check on my ego and ultimately following my intuition lately that I have found the bliss that I truly deserve.  Let me give an example that everyone can relate to:  There is a cosmic brownie in my pantry.  Now, I love cosmic brownies.  They are sweet and chocolatey and have little candies on top.  Who wouldn’t love one of those, right?

Last night I thought about eating it.  I even checked the calories and found there was 500 calories in the whole thing.  Immediately my intuition said, “don’t do it, all of that sugar is not good for your body.”  So, I put it back and went back to the living room.  As soon as my butt hit the chair the louder, more forceful voice of my ego came through and said: “Oh just do it.  It’s only 500 calories.  You’ve done excellent today.  Five hundred calories doesn’t even equal a pound, what can it hurt.”

Thankfully, I didn’t listen to my ego and had a small bowl of popcorn instead.  However, I know my ego quite well and it is not about to give up.  It knows that brownie is still in the cupboard and it is going to try its damnedest to wear me down.  Thankfully I am aware of it and I will not let this happen.  That brownie is out of here today!!  I will let my family know that it has to either be eaten before I get home from work or it is going into the trash.

I feel like I have just scored a point for Michele!!  Intuition, one…  Ego, zero…

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