How to love myself

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EFT-Emotional Freedom Technique

Published July 1, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

It’s such a long time since I have taken the time to write something.  I have been busy exploring new topics to improve myself.  I have recently started the book The Tapping Solution by Nick Ortner.  I am excited at the possibilities.  I have also been mentally preparing for a family gathering.  Which is stressful in and of itself.  That gathering was this past weekend.  It was fun, but at the same time a bit nerve-racking.

Isn’t it funny how in some families there seems to be a prevalence toward judgment?  I have always felt a bit inadequate and unworthy in the presence of my family.  Don’t get me wrong, I love them all dearly, and I suppose if I am honest, I am probably the same.  It’s hard to feel inferior amongst those that love you.  I know that this inferiority stems from perceptions from childhood.  I also know that with some exploration I have found that some events that I made out to be catastrophic as a young person, simply were not.  After a more adult evaluation of the circumstances I see these situations for what they are, a part of life.f78d6e23acd05956dac41c05600df679

It is what it is!  I know that as a child I allowed the opinions of other’s define me.  I took on judgments and layered them over me as if they were my own.  I allowed other people’s fears of their own self to become mine.  If I only knew what I know now I would have loved myself enough to tell myself that it would be OK, that life is a series of lessons and this is just one of many.  I would further explain that each and every lesson is a necessary ingredient in my journey.

As a young person I believed it when I was told that I needed to lose weight for someone to love me.  I believed I was diseased and un-loveable.  There was a time in my life when I remember walking down the street at about eleven or twelve years old thinking I was a martian but at the same time being thankful that I at least had good hair.  Of course at the age of forty-six I know longer feel that way.  Although it has been a slow work in progress it was worth every step.

I have had to learn where my fears and self-loathing came from in order to forgive the people who put them there.  I had to become one with them and feel their own self-loathing and sadness that drove them to judge me.  It also helped to grow spiritually which I did from learning from the best, Deepak Chopra, Wayne Dyer, Louis Hay, Michael Singer, Don Miguel Ruiz and Eckhart Tolle to name just a few.  These spiritual teachers taught me how to accept life for what it is and to change my thoughts to change my life.  They all have been a blessing in the lesson of stillness.  Through them I have learned to become still enough to allow my intuition to guide me.  To trust in my inner-self, my soul, my inner voice of God.

One of my favorites is Eckhart Tolle.  Listening to him speak is a meditation all on its own.  Eckhart has spoken so many inspiring words that have resonated with my inner awareness.  One of them being the time I heard him explain a passage from the bible where Jesus says “forgive them for they know not what they do”.  Eckhart explained it to mean that people operate from their own level of consciousness.  The very unconscious know not what they do.  The egoically driven person cannot possibly know what they do.   They simply are one with their thoughts.  They believe what the mind tells them without question.  He describes this as a maddening of the mind.

I have been there.  I get it!!  At the time of my deep unconsciousness I had no idea that I was not only hurting myself but everyone around me.  Thankfully a deep depression took over and allowed me to awaken and put a stop to it.  I was blessed enough to suffer greatly, as suffering speeds up the awakening process.  With this in mind how can I not be grateful for it?  Without it I would still be living within the madness that was once my mind.

Ah to be free!

 

 

It’s Time to Shake Things UP

Published June 2, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I am going to approach life in a different way for a bit.  I think it is about time that I shake things up.  I am going to focus my attention on becoming a fully conscious human being.  I am going to do what I can to create a balance between the Being that I am and the human that I am.  By that I mean to live my life fulfilling my responsibilities while being fully aware.  I want nothing more than to learn to live my life as a conscious person.

I want to experience that magic that life has to offer when living it in pure consciousness.  I am fully aware of the spirit within myself at this time, as I write.  Instead on using my focus to try to do “the right thing”, such as, making healthy choices.  It occurred to me that if I learn to live my life consciously I wont have to “try” to do anything.  The right things and the right opportunities will just present themselves clearly.  This is my mission.  I know that it will take some practice, but I just so happen to think enough of myself to take the time.

Living consciously will diminish worry and bring about moments of synchronicity that I also like to call miracles, this I know.  Therefore, for the next week I am going to pay close attention to what I am thinking, if any thoughts seem like junk, or should I say, serve no purpose, I will dismiss them immediately and concentrate on my breath.  As I know that the breath is the key to being present.

I will notice how it feels when the air enters my body, how my chest and stomach rise with the inhalation and fall with the exhalation.  I will notice how, with each breath, I will be filled with love and compassion and release stress and negativity.  During this time I will record any and all moments of synchronicity that shall become known to me.

Oh, and I almost forgot.  ☺  Below are some pictures that I took over the weekend.  I was blessed with a beautiful weekend filled with family, fun and laughter.

 

Love…… What else is there?

Published May 9, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I haven’t felt much like writing lately.  Life has been amazing.  I have been reading and walking, meditating and preparing to make a new vision board.

As my last post stated I am reading a book called Remembering the Future by Colette Baron-Reid.  I am feel very connected to this author.  She greatly changed my life last year with her book “The Weight-Loss Program for People Who Feel to Much.  I was forever changed through many, many journal writings.  I filled seven books in 2013 alone.  These books are filled with my journey to become a newer happier more peaceful me.

love_me-2387I was able to take a close look at my life and how my choices and thoughts were affecting my body, my happiness, my overall way of life.  I am still over-weight, but I love me.  I truly and forever deeply love myself.  It took a lot to get here, but I made it.  I make mistakes every day but in the end I forgive myself.  I express my love and compassion for myself and move forward.  I know longer taunt myself relentlessly for mistakes and I don’t belittle myself .  I show myself the respect I would give any other person in my path.  Rarely do I even feel guilty.  It may pop up for a second but then I am remember I don’t do “guilt”  it’s a waste of time and serves no purpose, much like worry…..  Both emotions are fruitless.

It has changed me.  I have learned to treat myself with kindness even after over-eating sometimes.  I am amazing, and God has given me another day to do better.  The best apology we can ever give past mistakes is how we live now, and the only way is love.  Love will conquer!  But it has to start with loving ourselves first.  Once that is mastered everything around becomes more peaceful.  Life becomes joyful.

Anyway, I am excited to get my new vision board done this weekend.  Colette described an interesting new outlook on creating and manifesting, using a vision board, since I am a lover of the vision board I am of course very excited to get started.

I will post a picture of it when it is done.

Happy Friday all.  It felt good to write again.  ☺

With much love, Michele ♥

I Have Been Given a Gift

Published May 5, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

As I sit and listen to Oprah and Eckhart go over Chapter 7 in A New Earth I realize this chapter was a life changer for me about a year ago.  Without even realizing what I was doing, I began applying this principle to my life.  I learned to feel my emotions and explore them without judgement.  When a challenging situation would arise my emotions would dart through my sacral chakra up into the solar plexus almost simultaneously.  It felt like an electrical shock, a rush of energy that surged from those areas then throughout my entire body at such a rate of speed, it seemed to take me along for the ride whether I wanted to go or not.

imagesI instantly felt doom, like my world, as I knew it, was crumbling.  I remember literally curling up in a ball, almost paralyzed with fear when something unexpected would happen, something I labeled as bad.  It could have been as small as car troubles and often was.  Then at the beginning of 2013 I was introduced to a book called The Weight-loss Program for People Who Feel to Much.  I actually remember saying a prayer asking God to give me the resources I needed to save my life.

Immediately after that prayer I logged into Amazon and this book was right in front of me, front and center.  I knew at the time that it was no accident, this book seemed to be calling out to me, so I purchased it right then, and there.  Needless to say it changed my life, not only by reading it, Colette taught me how to write as a form of therapy.  Colette Baron-Reid taught me how to explore my emotions on a deeper level, she taught me how to recognize that my emotions were in control of me, rather than I, of them.  Over the course of a few months I had made immeasurable changes as far as being in control of my reactions to life’s “little” curve balls.  In fact I began seeing life differently all together.

This seemingly tiny little thing has afforded me a sense of peace that is worth millions.  I learned to surrender to what is.  And by doing so I learned to see the best possible solutions to life’s event.  These solutions would come forward like mini miracles.  The simple act of surrender allows the universe to work it’s magic in my favor.  My greatest lesson from this is that,  I do not have the answers.  I cannot possibly create the best outcome to any situation.  In fact the more I get involved the worse the situation seemed to become.  I know this to be true, because I have been practicing it for more than a year now and although I am not perfect, I have not had an emotion take me for a ride in a very long time, and life has become effortless and joyful.  It is the ultimate freedom.

mM-JZX2bsV7fS_woWKQWxZgRecently I was given a book.  This book is also written by Colette.  My sister gifted me the book Remembering the Future.  I had the book for a few days without paying much attention to it.  My son put it on my dresser and there it sat until one day as I was passing by I picked it up to investigate.  The minute I realized the book was written by Colette I knew that this book was passed on to me for a reason.  I couldn’t believe it.  I began reading it right away. I am very excited at the possibilities this book represents.

I will read it from cover to cover and do all of the exercises.  I can feel the importance of this book from deep within my core.  I know that I am going to learn a lot and in turn become more and more at peace.  I have been asking God to help me  and support me in my quest to be healthy and whole from the inside out, and again, I believe He has.  This book is a gift from the cosmos delivered by way of my sister.

How perfect! ♥

 

The Loves of My LIfe

Published April 22, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

It is positively heart breaking to see people “rehoming” their pets.  I guess I just don’t get it.  I have two cats and they are my precious babies.  I would not rehome them.  If I couldn’t have them where I was living I would rehome myself first.

I wish I had the room to take them all in.  It is very unfortunate.  People, please think long and hard before getting a pet.  They should be looked at as one of your children, not a thing that can be discarded when they are no longer convenient.  They have feelings and contrary to what most people believe, animals do think.  They do have anxiety and depression when things are out of sorts for them.

Below are pictures of my babies.  The older one was abandoned and moved in with us a couple of years ago.  He came to me at a time when I needed him the most.  My landlord didn’t allow pets and threatened to kick us out if we didn’t get rid of him, so we moved.  Simply as that.  He needed us and we needed him, and we were not about to abandon him as well.  The little one’s name is Tootsie.  We adopted her from the animal shelter when she was about 10 weeks old.  This picture shows her ride home from the shelter.

They both mean the world to me, and it is perfectly OK if you want to call me the crazy cat, I wear that label with pride.  ☺

 

Day 2: Finding Happiness

Published April 15, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Oh yeah, another day!  What could be sweeter.  When I got up this morning is was 57 degrees outside.  The birds are chirping away and the sun has yet to come up.  What an amazing gift.  It is bound to be a wonderful day.  I have absolutely nothing planned.  Today I intend on winging it.  The best plan, to have no plan at all, to simply flow from situation to situation, just being.  I have no expectations and there is no place I would rather be than in this moment.

quotes-of-the-day-life-7-300x300Knowing that neither the past or the future exist now, leaves life wide open for peace and contentedness.  This mornings meditation was amazing and left me feeling “Ah inspired“.  Today’s centering thought “I am the source of unlimited happiness” and believe it or not, after a short twenty minutes, I am exuding happiness.  I am ready to go to the gym and kick-start my day.  I am ready to enjoy each and ever moment as it unfolds.

Remember, it is the ego that creates a need for over indulgence, and the ego cannot thrive with awareness so take time today to be aware of every moment.  Take time to notice your breath and feel the inner aliveness in your hands.  Notice the tingle of the inner vibrations of your body and your need for more will diminish.  Take time to check in with yourself throughout the day to be sure your not projecting your thoughts to the past or the future.  Neither of these exist in the present moment and going there will only create unnecessary stress.

Treat your body with dignity and respect and it will become your greatest ally~Deepak Chopra

 

 

I Feel Blessed and Reborn

Published April 11, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks
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I noticed that my mind was much quieter this morning during my morning meditation session.  I think when I make poor choices as far as what I put in my mouth it causes my mind to become overactive and judgey.  I am about to head into the weekend with the intention of being fully present and conscious, throughout.  If I feel myself become board or looking for something outside of myself, I am going to know right away that I have slipped back into an unconscious state of awareness.  The very minute I become aware of it I am going to take the time to sit in the stillness and simply notice the aliveness of my inner body.  Nothing brings us back to the present moment like feeling the inner vibration of every cell in the body.

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Weekends are always tough but this one is going to be different.  We are calling for decent weather which means we will get outside and enjoy a bit of nature.  As Jill and I walked home from work yesterday it was amazing to see nature coming alive, once again.  There were already a few vibrantly green blades of grass peaking through the brown.  We even noticed a flower bed that was coming up, tulips I believe Jill said.

Nature is the ultimate source of reincarnation.  After the dreadfully cold winter we are all blessed to be able to see all of God’s creations slowly come back to life.  I can’t wait to get out there and enjoy every minute of it.  Being that I live on the Canadian border, it is inevitable that the seasons will come and they will go, so it is up to us to get out and enjoy it whenever we can.

Spring is here.  I can hear the birds outside singing and playing.  What an amazing sound.  I know that I intend on making the most of every minute, of every day.  For me, this winter served as a lesson to take advantage of the warm weather, the sun, the warm soft breeze as it blows through the trees.  We are free to roam the earth once again without fear of freezing.  I, myself, feel reincarnated.

 

Food; My Drug of Choice

Published April 7, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

lessons-in-life_3121009It’s Monday morning.  I am up, enjoying the peace and tranquility of my home.  Everyone else is sleeping.  This is my time.  People often ask how I can go to bed so early and get up so early.  If they only knew how wonderful it is they would, too, do the same.  The weekend was rough.  I am glad that it is over.  I have learned that I don’t handle stress well.  I am not unlike the drug addict or the alcoholic in that I feed life’s stresses with things, only, my drug of choice is food.

I know that self-awareness is the key to change, therefore, I must be close to changing this, because, I, not only know that I am doing it, but announce it to those around me.  Yesterday while trying to eat away the stress of car problems, I was sure to tell everyone, that I know I have a problem, that my body doesn’t even want what I am eating, that I am doing it simply to appease my mind.

I am one to view all of life’s challenges as lessons, and I know that this is certainly one of them.  I eat when I am stressed out and it doesn’t make my problems go away or make them any better.  I know that the chances of me living a life without situations that cause stress is just not going to happen, unless I turn into a care bear and live my life in the land of glitter and unicorns.  So, I am at an impasse, you might say.  I know what I am doing is not working, therefore, do I continue to do it, or find a better, more constructive way to deal with my stress?

I have to hope that since I am consciously doing it, I must be close to stopping it.  Right?  I am praying so because it’s beginning to become very discouraging, to say the least.  I am thankful that God grants us a clean fresh start every single day.  I know that the minute my eyes open I have the opportunity to make things right.  And I also know that as long as I try, I am I can’t lose.  God helps those who help themselves, so as long as I continue to help myself, I believe that God will bless me with the answers to, finally put this test to rest.

What Will You Do with the Next 86,400 Seconds of Your Day?

Published April 4, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks
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It occurred to me this morning, soon after my meditation session was complete, that simply meditating for twenty minutes in the morning is just not enough.  I must be able to take the meditation even further by experiencing the stillness in all situations.  This has been a practice for a while now and by practice I mean, just that, practice.  I have to remind myself to do this, not only daily but hourly.  It makes all the difference in how I react to life’s events.  Surrender is peace, surrender is power.  I don’t know where I head that, but I am sure it came from someone great.  ☺

I was always one to fight against just about everything that came into my life. I lived in a state of denial, believing that if I ignored difficult situations they would simply go away.  Boy, was I wrong.  Not only did they not go away but eventually they compounded into a situation so large that it could no longer be ignored.  Eventually I was forced to face it and deal with it anyway, so why not deal with it Immediately, right?  This has been a huge lesson for me, but I think I have finally got it.

First I have learned to accept the situation for what it is, relax and allow the solution to present itself.  That’s it!  It’s really that easy.  It’s difficult to recognize that best possible solutions to a perceived problem if we are all tied up in knots on the inside, fighting against the problem in the first place.  A great man once said; “What you resist persist”, that great man is Eckhart tolle.

He obviously knows what he is talking about, because I spent years resisting the acceptance of my body and my body became more and more out of balance.  I spent years resisting the acceptance of myself and I became more and more depressed and difficult to deal with.

Now, I can honestly say that I love and honor my body, as well as, myself.  There are times when my blasted ego wants to pop up and question me, but with the help of Eckhart, I have learned to become aware of it, and as Eckhart says the ego cannot survive with awareness.  Essentially awareness is the ego’s kryptonite, therefore it is my mission to recognize it and put a kabosh to its old conditioned way of thinking.

With all of that being said, I am off to enjoy my Friday!  I am going to move through my day with acute consciousness.  I am going to stay in the Now and enjoy every minute of this gift. we call today.  May you all have the best day ever, while cherishing the 86,400 seconds within.

 

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