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Show Me Your Vision Boards

Published April 16, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

vision boardHow many of you out there have used vision boards as a way to bring specific things into their life?  I, for one, am a firm believer in the vision bored.  I started using them by accident the first part of 2012.  It was a particularly cold day in March, and I was bored.  I guess I didn’t know it at the time but it was my intuition that urged me to make my very first vision board.

So I went to the internet and picked out some pictures that I thought called to me.  This was the fun part and took quite a lot of time.  At the time I really had no rhyme or reason as to the pictures I picked.  I had a picture of a new car, a small red house with a for sale sign in front of it and some random pictures of nature, Buddha, and people in meditation.  I ordered them through the one hour photo at Wal-Mart, and went to pick them up as well as everything else I would need.

I bought a large framed poster board, and some glue sticks, that was it, that is all I needed to put it all together.  After I had carefully glued the pictures in place, I put them in the frame and hung it on my living room wall.  I enjoyed the process of making it but to be honest, once I put it on the wall I didn’t give it another thought.  IMG_1460

About five months later I was given the opportunity to buy a house almost identical to the one in the picture I had put on my vision board.  I was shocked because I really had not thought about buying a house like that.  I had already lost a business and a home years earlier, so I knew it would take an act of God to make this one happen.

And that He did.  We ended up moving into that house two months later.  The car came three months after that.  Oh and yes, about the meditation and nature, they are both very important aspects to my health and well-being.  Needless to say after that I became a vision board fiend.

I have six of them displayed throughout my house at this time.  A lot of them don’t have anything to do with physical things but are more about my spiritual expansion.  They work!  I cannot say it enough about it, give it a try.  It is like putting super grow on your intentions and desires.

20140513-050335.jpgThe very next board I made was about living and eating healthy.  It was about creating healthy boundaries and loving myself enough to follow them.  That was in November 2012.  In January of the following year, book after book came to me.  It was like my teacher guides were standing next to me to help unravel some of what got me to become so overweight.  I remembered hearing “you have to fix the inside first before you can fix the outside.”  Being that, for most of my life, I had no idea what that meant I skipped over that part until now.

Over the course of the next ten months, I began a journey of deep exploration into the inner workings of Michele.  Through the unraveling process I lost a hundred pounds.  I lost that weight with the greatest of ease.  It simply fell off.  I was so happy I felt as though I were flying most of the time.  I seriously could go on forever on this subject but for the sake of cutting it short I say that this weekend we all make a vision board and post them here or on my Facebook page Waking Up in Northern NY.

Oh and by the way I have actually advanced my vision board making to the computer.  I use the paint program and have it printed and then I frame and hang it.  I love them all.  I am excited to make another.  If anyone has any questions about how to make them, please feel free to contact me through my Facebook page.

Well my loves, I am off to face the day.  I hope you all have the most fantastic day ever!

Much Love

Michele ❤

What Does Co-Creating Mean to You

Published November 24, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I am in the midst of working through the work book section of The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav, This weeks assignment is creating a specific intention for the day and journal writing what I see.  My daily intention;

I intend on finding meaning for me personally in my every day experiences.  I intend on seeing what I did not see before, and I intend on recognizing my insights as valuable experiences in my extra sensory perception.

This brings me to the phrase “co-creating”.  I have seen this phrase many times over the past couple of days so I thought I would ask myself, what does co-creating mean to me?

Co-creating to me goes along with the saying “God helps those who help themselves”.  Meaning, I am able to create intentions and desires for my life and with God, I will realize them without struggle.  It means that as long as I am clear about what I want for my life, detach from the outcome and allow myself to flow freely with what is, my desires will be realized, not only in an effortless way but an exciting one.

I have come to understand long ago that I do not have all the answers.  That my way is not the best way.  Over the past several years it has become apparent that the less I try to make something happen the easier they do happen.  I know this may sound confusing to some, but it makes perfect sense to me.  I cannot tell you the many times in my life I created a plan of action to get a specific result only to have the plan fall apart and the whole thing implode before my eyes.

Over and over again I would create a clear-cut plan that would get me what I wanted only to fail miserably.  It wasn’t until I learned to be clear about what I want and stay open as to how I would receive it.  I came to realize that it was OK to have intentions and desires without a clue as to how they would come to fruition.

For example there was a point, not to long ago, that I hated my job.  My supervisor was insensitive and mean.  She used me as a dumping ground for her miserableness.  I tried so hard to find another job.  I applied to hundreds of positions, went on several interviews and got nothing.  I am a great employee so when it seemed no one wanted me it was not only frustrating but devastating.  I give 100% of myself to my employer.  I take on any job as if I owned it myself and make sure it shows in my work, but for some reason I just couldn’t get away.

Finally I conceded to it.  I surrendered.  I simply told God I would let him have this one.  I would not apply to another job.  My supervisor was leaving for surgery therefore I would relax and let God and the universe step up to find me the position of my dreams after she returned to work.  The next several weeks were amazing.  They were peaceful and I enjoyed every minute of it.  I was really beginning to enjoy my job.

As the day approached that she would be returning to work, I thought nothing of it.  I simply continued to do my job and keep quiet.  I remember it like it were yesterday.  She came back to work that Monday and was still as unhappy as she had always been.  Still, I did my job and kept quiet.  I noticed that she was beginning to get even more agitated as the day progressed.

All of a sudden she stood up from her desk and exclaimed that she just couldn’t do this anymore and stormed into the bosses office.  A few minutes later she re-entered our office and told me she put in her two weeks notice.  I was shocked but still, I said nothing.  Long story short, I am now the office manager in the same office and love my job more that anything.  My dream position was handed to me on a silver platter and I did nothing to make it happen.  I simply surrendered to what was and continued to do my best.

That is what co-creating means to me.  This is only one example of co-creating in my life.  I have many, many examples of co-creating that have occurred in my life since this one and looking back I can see how it was happening in my past as well.  It’s the most amazing gift.  Once I became conscious enough to realize it I was able to harness it and meet my intentions and desires with much more ease.

Life is an amazingly, magical ride.  Give it a shot you will not be disappointed.

With love and Light



I Have Been Given a Gift

Published May 5, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

As I sit and listen to Oprah and Eckhart go over Chapter 7 in A New Earth I realize this chapter was a life changer for me about a year ago.  Without even realizing what I was doing, I began applying this principle to my life.  I learned to feel my emotions and explore them without judgement.  When a challenging situation would arise my emotions would dart through my sacral chakra up into the solar plexus almost simultaneously.  It felt like an electrical shock, a rush of energy that surged from those areas then throughout my entire body at such a rate of speed, it seemed to take me along for the ride whether I wanted to go or not.

imagesI instantly felt doom, like my world, as I knew it, was crumbling.  I remember literally curling up in a ball, almost paralyzed with fear when something unexpected would happen, something I labeled as bad.  It could have been as small as car troubles and often was.  Then at the beginning of 2013 I was introduced to a book called The Weight-loss Program for People Who Feel to Much.  I actually remember saying a prayer asking God to give me the resources I needed to save my life.

Immediately after that prayer I logged into Amazon and this book was right in front of me, front and center.  I knew at the time that it was no accident, this book seemed to be calling out to me, so I purchased it right then, and there.  Needless to say it changed my life, not only by reading it, Colette taught me how to write as a form of therapy.  Colette Baron-Reid taught me how to explore my emotions on a deeper level, she taught me how to recognize that my emotions were in control of me, rather than I, of them.  Over the course of a few months I had made immeasurable changes as far as being in control of my reactions to life’s “little” curve balls.  In fact I began seeing life differently all together.

This seemingly tiny little thing has afforded me a sense of peace that is worth millions.  I learned to surrender to what is.  And by doing so I learned to see the best possible solutions to life’s event.  These solutions would come forward like mini miracles.  The simple act of surrender allows the universe to work it’s magic in my favor.  My greatest lesson from this is that,  I do not have the answers.  I cannot possibly create the best outcome to any situation.  In fact the more I get involved the worse the situation seemed to become.  I know this to be true, because I have been practicing it for more than a year now and although I am not perfect, I have not had an emotion take me for a ride in a very long time, and life has become effortless and joyful.  It is the ultimate freedom.

mM-JZX2bsV7fS_woWKQWxZgRecently I was given a book.  This book is also written by Colette.  My sister gifted me the book Remembering the Future.  I had the book for a few days without paying much attention to it.  My son put it on my dresser and there it sat until one day as I was passing by I picked it up to investigate.  The minute I realized the book was written by Colette I knew that this book was passed on to me for a reason.  I couldn’t believe it.  I began reading it right away. I am very excited at the possibilities this book represents.

I will read it from cover to cover and do all of the exercises.  I can feel the importance of this book from deep within my core.  I know that I am going to learn a lot and in turn become more and more at peace.  I have been asking God to help me  and support me in my quest to be healthy and whole from the inside out, and again, I believe He has.  This book is a gift from the cosmos delivered by way of my sister.

How perfect! ♥


Let the Show Begin

Published April 9, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Today is full of uncertainty.  I guess that is a good thing.  We are supposed to live in the present moment which is always full of uncertainty and excitement, so I suppose I am exactly where I am supposed to be.  Yesterday’s part two of the interview process, the negotiation part did not WOW me.  It did not scream “this is right” at all.  In comparison I would be getting an increase in pay and a decrease in insurance.


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Therefore, I am left wanting to stay with my current company, which is ok since I do love it there, it’s just that it has been more than two years since I have gotten a raise.  Considering all my expenses have increased due to tax hikes and a bitter cold winter I, not only, want a raise, but I need one.  I have never been the type of person to ask people for anything, but today, that changes.  I am going to have to knuckle down and go for it.  I have taken on a ton of extra responsibilities so either they will agree that I deserve a raise or I will be ending my employment there and moving onto to other things.

It is not an ultimatum, in any way.  It is simply that I must be in a place that allows me to take care of myself and my family.  Since we are not the “run to the doctor” type people a little less insurance might be OK, it’s a gamble, a risk that’s for sure.  I just want to do what is right for me and my family at this point.  I guess only time will tell.  I will know by the end of the day whether or not I am headed for a new adventure or staying where I am content and at peace.

I believe God will make it right, so I am at his mercy.  I am only to sit back and watch the show.  Whatever happens, happens.  I am ready to be where ever you want me to be, God.  I trust you fully.  Let the show begin!

Reflections of My Very First Vision Board

Published April 8, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks
Car from very same vision board

Car from very same vision board

Today is the negotiation part of the interview process.  Then, I guess I will have some heavy decision-making to do.  At least the new company is going to allow me to give the company I am at right now about a months notice.  I certainly don’t want to abandon anyone or leave with hard feelings.  It’s hard for me to believe that this new company is going to be able to outdo what I am getting right now.  Being that I have a family of five and health care is not cheap, that alone is a large expense when taking on a new employee.

All I know is I wont be making any hasty decisions.  I will take the time to think about, and talk it over with my husband, before making any final decisions.  However, it is in the back of my mind that when I made my very first vision board I posted a picture of the car that I have always wanted.  This car was so far out of reach for me it wasn’t even funny.  I put it on the same board that landed me the little house I am living in right now.  That car is a Dodge Charger, and get this, the company I am in negotiations with is a Dodge dealership.

Could this be God’s way of getting me closer to owning that Dodge Charger I have always wanted?  Could this be the guidance of the universe to make my vision come to fruition?  I know that some of you may scoff at the idea of vision boards, but I can only tell you that only a few months after making my first vision board I bought a house that was almost identical to the house I posted on it.  Coincidence?  I think not!

Since that time I have made several other’s, mostly on spiritual awakening and healthy living .  Could it be time to make yet another with a new set of dreams?  Just to show you all what I am talking about, below is the house I posted on the vision board and the house I bought a few months later.  Above is the car that I post on the very same vision board.  I absolutely love my little house.  It is cozy and comfortable, but before posting it, I had no intention of ever owning a house again, since I lost my first house through the loss of a business.  Not only did I have no intention of owning again, I thought it was out of the question due to losing my first one to foreclosure.

It is what it is.  I am not going to take this new job unless it screams “this is right for you“.  I have a hunch that I will know right away whether or not this is what I am supposed to do.  I have kept my mind still, I have made no assumptions either way, and I am not in a position that I have to do anything.  I am certain that God will give me the answer at the exact right time I am to know it.  I fully trust my intuition and the guidance of the universe, therefore, I am off to enjoy my day and all the opportunities that should arise.

The first house is the one that was posted on my vision board and the second is the one I bought a few months later ☺


How to React to the Ego

Published April 6, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

oprah_eckhartToday I intend on going over Chapter 3 of A New Earth with Oprah and Eckhart on OWN.  I have thoroughly enjoyed learning about the ego.  With my new found awareness I am able to spot it much quicker and easier.  What I have come to realize is, it is there.  It is always there, and if I were to live in a state of unconsciousness, it would, without a doubt, take over and control every action and reaction to life.

I noticed yesterday when talking with someone who obviously operates solely from the perspective of the ego, that being present with this person, was the only way to go.  Last week when I tried to explain my side of things it only created aggressive behavior.  While this week, I simply listened with full awareness and nodded slightly while she was speaking which made for a much calmer and less intense exchange.  I can only surmise that by being fully conscious and nonreactive that this allowed her ego to feel less threatened and superior.

What a wonderful lesson.  If nothing else, I have learned how to react the to ego in another.  I have learned that it is not important that I state my case because not everyone is going to get it anyway, and if I am able to bring about a sense of peace within someone else, I am all for it.  Watch here for a thirty second explanation of what the ego is by Eckhart.  This tiny little clip will open you up to recognizing the ego, not only in ones self, but in others.  Once awareness is brought about, the ego no longer has control, as the ego cannot survive awareness.



Has Spring, Sprung?

Published April 4, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks
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It’s Friday!!  Friday’s are especially wonderful.  Why is that?  It’s a day like any other.  It’s the day preceding two days away from the office, yes, but what is so special about these two days, anyway?  I am one that loves productivity and usually my weekends are greatly lacking in that area.  Often times I will get up on Monday morning with lower back pain from my lack of productivity.

I begin every weekend the same way, with a list of things I can do to keep busy, and while I do most of them, it is simply not enough to keep me as active as my body would like.  I keep telling myself that as soon as the weather breaks and we are blessed with warm temperatures and a blazing sun, that I will finally be able to get outside and enjoy some me time.  I thoroughly enjoy walking meditations, meaning walking while being fully conscious of my surroundings.  Listening to the hum of the universe, the birds playing and singing and the wind rustling the trees.  Seeing all the vibrant colors the world has to offer, the hundreds of shades of green that make up the trees, grass, and the flowers.

Spring is coming.  It’s on its way.  As I went out this morning to start my car to allow it to warm up before heading to the gym, I heard the birds singing off in a distance.  That is enough to tell me that we are getting close.  There is light at the end of this season, after all.  It’s been a long cold winter.  We are feeling a bit caged at this point, but we are finally going to be free to roam, once again.

What Will You Do with the Next 86,400 Seconds of Your Day?

Published April 4, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks
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It occurred to me this morning, soon after my meditation session was complete, that simply meditating for twenty minutes in the morning is just not enough.  I must be able to take the meditation even further by experiencing the stillness in all situations.  This has been a practice for a while now and by practice I mean, just that, practice.  I have to remind myself to do this, not only daily but hourly.  It makes all the difference in how I react to life’s events.  Surrender is peace, surrender is power.  I don’t know where I head that, but I am sure it came from someone great.  ☺

I was always one to fight against just about everything that came into my life. I lived in a state of denial, believing that if I ignored difficult situations they would simply go away.  Boy, was I wrong.  Not only did they not go away but eventually they compounded into a situation so large that it could no longer be ignored.  Eventually I was forced to face it and deal with it anyway, so why not deal with it Immediately, right?  This has been a huge lesson for me, but I think I have finally got it.

First I have learned to accept the situation for what it is, relax and allow the solution to present itself.  That’s it!  It’s really that easy.  It’s difficult to recognize that best possible solutions to a perceived problem if we are all tied up in knots on the inside, fighting against the problem in the first place.  A great man once said; “What you resist persist”, that great man is Eckhart tolle.

He obviously knows what he is talking about, because I spent years resisting the acceptance of my body and my body became more and more out of balance.  I spent years resisting the acceptance of myself and I became more and more depressed and difficult to deal with.

Now, I can honestly say that I love and honor my body, as well as, myself.  There are times when my blasted ego wants to pop up and question me, but with the help of Eckhart, I have learned to become aware of it, and as Eckhart says the ego cannot survive with awareness.  Essentially awareness is the ego’s kryptonite, therefore it is my mission to recognize it and put a kabosh to its old conditioned way of thinking.

With all of that being said, I am off to enjoy my Friday!  I am going to move through my day with acute consciousness.  I am going to stay in the Now and enjoy every minute of this gift. we call today.  May you all have the best day ever, while cherishing the 86,400 seconds within.


Blah Blah Blah, My Intentions and The Law of Giving

Published April 3, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

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Yesterday’s interview went well.  The gentlemen that interviewed me seemed very genuine and nice.  The job was not offered in any way, however they did ask me what I was looking for as far as compensation, and I was honest enough to tell them what I was making at my current place of employment and that I am looking for an increase.  They said they would discuss it and get back with me in a week or so.

Since then, my mind wants to try to replay the entire conversation, analyzing me and everything I said.  I know this is my ego just trying to figure out if I fit in, but what I want to say to my ego is, bug off!  It doesn’t matter if I fit in.  I didn’t rehearse what I was going to say because I wanted everything to come from an authentic place.  I didn’t over think it because I didn’t want to appear nervous or needy.  After all, I am not needy.  I have a job with a company I care a great deal for and if this other company doesn’t feel I am a good fit for them, it is nothing personal.  It simply is, what it is.  That been said, I am off to enjoy my day.

28-Pedicel_flowers-008My intentions

I intend on taking the time to focus on my inner aliveness.  I intend on paying attention to the old conditioning of my mind and ridding it of the unnecessary thought patterns that continue to creep in.  I intend on spending my day being present with whatever it is I am doing and enjoy the excitement of whatever today brings.  I also, intend on giving my full attention to anyone who needs me or anyone who simply has something to say to me.  Finally, I intend on going with the flow knowing all well, that I will know exactly what to do, when I need to do it with the help of my intuition.

The Law of Giving

  • Listen and you will be heard
  • Understand and you will be understood
  • Love and you will be loved
  • Be compassionate and you will receive compassion
  • Bless and you shall be blessed



☺ Booyah ☺

Published April 2, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

trustYourIntuitionI just had an AHA moment.  For those of you who aren’t aware of what an aha moment is, it is spirit recognizing spirit.  It is when you hear something or become aware of something that resonates so deeply that is touches your soul.  Anyway, I have been feeling really amazing lately.  I mean the kind of amazing that allows causeless joy and bliss to bubble up from your core unexpectedly.

On the way home from the gym this morning I felt this feeling of love and complete and utter bliss well up from inside of me, it was so strong it nearly took my breath away and my first thought was; “wow that was amazing, what am I doing that is causing this to happen?” And it was right at that moment that I realized that what I am doing is following my intuition.  You know, that still small voice that tries to steer you in the right direction, just before the louder voice tells you not to listen and do what you want.  Yea, that still small voice, like I said is my intuition and that much louder voice, is that of my ego.

It became clear this morning that since keeping check on my ego and ultimately following my intuition lately that I have found the bliss that I truly deserve.  Let me give an example that everyone can relate to:  There is a cosmic brownie in my pantry.  Now, I love cosmic brownies.  They are sweet and chocolatey and have little candies on top.  Who wouldn’t love one of those, right?

Last night I thought about eating it.  I even checked the calories and found there was 500 calories in the whole thing.  Immediately my intuition said, “don’t do it, all of that sugar is not good for your body.”  So, I put it back and went back to the living room.  As soon as my butt hit the chair the louder, more forceful voice of my ego came through and said: “Oh just do it.  It’s only 500 calories.  You’ve done excellent today.  Five hundred calories doesn’t even equal a pound, what can it hurt.”

Thankfully, I didn’t listen to my ego and had a small bowl of popcorn instead.  However, I know my ego quite well and it is not about to give up.  It knows that brownie is still in the cupboard and it is going to try its damnedest to wear me down.  Thankfully I am aware of it and I will not let this happen.  That brownie is out of here today!!  I will let my family know that it has to either be eaten before I get home from work or it is going into the trash.

I feel like I have just scored a point for Michele!!  Intuition, one…  Ego, zero…

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