Today my intentions are to be rooted deeply in preparation. I intend on enjoying each and every minute of my last day off. I intend on preparing for my week ahead so as to take the pressure off by preparing healthy meals, as well as the outfits I will wear. I also intend being productive and energetic finding the time to dance, read, and learn something new. Finally, I intend on spending the day with feelings of peace, love, and joy.
Wow, it has been such a long time since I have blogged. I have been spending the past three months on a personal journey to expand my spirituality. I have found such peace and contentedness in my life. There is something to be said for surrendering yourself to allow life to flow without interference. It brings about a sense of great peace. Peace is power. There is also quite a lot less of me as well. At Christmas time I had not only gained all the weight back that I had lost but tacked on a little more for good measure. My life was spiraling out of control at that time. When I ate it was like a frenzied feeling and right after I felt devastated, like a failure. It was awful.
Then, on the morning of January 2nd I believe that I had an awakening of some sort. I remember waking up that morning, going to the computer and searching for books that would help to to gain some perspective to why it is I do what I do. I began the search for my true self. I turned to God and my faith to gain control of my life. I started reading many books that were designed to help me in this journey of self exploration. I have never been a reader but let me tell you I now have a deep sincere love for the peace that it offers.
This morning I had a strong urge to take a moment to update everyone on what I have been up to lately, and since I have been making it a practice to follow my intuition it was a must to take a moment to blog. I am making a promise to not walk away again. I will keep in contact.
I remember it like it was yesterday. I was feeling down that morning so I came down stairs and laid on the couch watching TV. I feel asleep briefly. When my eyes opened I saw the planes flying into the twin towers. I sprang to my feet and stood in shock. At first I thought what I was seeing was a movie or something. I called my husband at work to tell him what was happening. I can’t remember how long I cried. It seemed like forever.
This is a sad day in US history. All we can do now is remember those who lost their lives that day. Be kind and caring to those you come in contact with and try to make this world a little better. You can’t change the world unless you change yourself first.