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Where Do You Fit In?

Published April 22, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Last night the sweetest husband in the world got a gig for Friday night for a couple of hours.  For those of you who don’t know what Roger does, he is a drummer.  He has retired so many times over the years, and yet again he is coming out of retirement to play to do this gig.

I was first attracted to Roger because of his talent.  I just love artists of all kinds.  I am drawn to their cdownload (2)reativity, however, I am simply not into the bar scene anymore.  I dread this gig because I know he wants me to go.  In an earlier post I exclaimed how I only do what I want to do these days, but I guess that is not entirely true.  There are times I still do things I don’t want to do to make the people I love happy.

This is different from being the people pleaser I used to be.  I spent so many years of my life not really knowing who I was.  I always went along with whatever everyone wanted.  I didn’t even think for myself.  I carried the thoughts and beliefs of the people I most wanted to fit in with.

I remember shortly after I began my meditation practice when I became more in touch with who I truly am.  I was shocked to find out who I was, or lack there of.  I realized that I literally had no identity.  I had no idea even what I liked or didn’t like,  My identity was a little bit of this, from one person and a little bit of that, from another.  It took several years of writing to finally figure out who I am, and guess what?  I am a pretty terrific person.  Shocker……  I actually love me.

It turns out, I am a little kooky, but I’m fun.  I have some way out beliefs that most of my friends and family don’t get and that’s OK.  I don’t have to be like everyone else to fit in.  I have found that people like me in spite of my wackiness.  If I am to be completely honest, I am not one of those people who even wants to sit in the shadows.  I want to be out front, standing up for myself and for what I believe.  0ae697e72320ba16dba90e6e6dd3b4f1

That been said, let’s all stand out today.  Let’s show the world that we are not part of the cookie cutter mold that some believe they need to be.

We are one of a kind, baby.  Let’s start acting like it.

Many Blessings

❤ Michele

Waking up in Northern NY

Rituals or Routine?

Published April 14, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

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Who out there has rituals they perform on a daily basis?  I for one, love my morning rituals.  I love them so much I get up between three and four o’clock in the morning to be sure I am able to get them all in.  These rituals have changed my life.  I seriously went from a miserable, person to a blissful person in a very short amount of time.

I am able to carry out these rituals with ease because they are moving me closer to my purpose.  I can feel it each and every day.  I get up, I learn more, read more, write more and I feel fabulous for it.

So, each morning I get up and after feeding the cats and making the coffee, I dance.  I turn on some dance music and just go to town.  This morning I danced while watching Ellen with the music playing lightly in the back ground.  I have to say it was pretty awesome.  Ellen is a great person.  When I am finished watching her show I feel so uplifted, so I thought I would do it first thing in the morning and see how it uplifts my day.  I am giving this a definite thumbs up!

Then I open my journal and begin writing.  Whatever comes to mind, even if it is silly and nonsensical, I write it anyway because once the pen is primed I get my best information.  I use my journal to ask for guidance.  I use my journal to plan my meals or what I have to do in any given day.  I write outside of the lines and I scribble in it.  It is me and I love it.  I heard someone say one time that they wrote their self joyful.  That statement resonates with me because I feel as though I have written myself joyful as well.

The next thing I do is meditate for twenty minutes.  I usually just turn on YouTube to a meditation video, turn down the lights and meditate.  My mantra of choice is So Hum.  I like it because it means I am, which are two of my favorite words.  Did you know that whatever follows I am, will be what creates your life?  Therefore, we all want to be careful how you use those two powerful words.

Finally, I contemplate my day for a few seconds and then come up with an affirmation or two that brings it all together.  So, lets see, what are a couple of good affirmations for this fine Tuesday morning?

  • I am open and receptive to the messages from my teacher guides today
  • I am at peace and ready to learn
  • I am a perpetual student.  I am ready to take my spiritual growth to the next level
  • I am prosperous.  My income increases constantly

So there you have it, I have four today.  As they come I write them down.  I know they are messages from my intuition so I do not leave any out.  They are all equally important.

Well, my friends I am off to get on with my day.  May you all find peace and contentment as well as hope and excitement.

Have a blessed day

Michele ❤

Waking Up in Norther NY

What’s My Vibrational Problem?

Published April 13, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I got up this morning feeling all blah and icky.  This is totally unlike me.  I love getting up in the morning.  It doesn’t matter if it’s Monday or Friday.  I love all of the days of the week.  I love going to work, I love coming home and I love everything in between.  I know what you must be thinking.  “oh my gosh, puke, this girl can’t be that happy.”  But the truth is, I am.


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So when I wake up feeling anything other than the happiness I normally feel, I immediately take to my journal to write out all the thoughts, and emotions that come up when I inquire; What do I need to know right now?  Why am I feeling vibrationally off this morning?  And what came through the pen were a few different things.

First, I wrote how my secretary, my partner, is on vacation and I will have to be alone and do all the work this week.  Then I wrote that I am just coming off of a weekend where I ate more than I should have.  And finally I wrote how I am two days from starting my period.  Bingo!!  That’s the one.

I knew right away that the PMS was the culprit.  I know how I get just before my period.  I can be grumpy, crave foods I shouldn’t be eating, and have zero energy.  Now that I am aware of the elephant in the room, so to speak, I can take measures to be sure that I stay stress free.  How do I do this?  It’s simple.  I always come back to my breath.

I will be doing many one-minute meditations for the next couple of days.  I read somewhere that it is impossible to become stressed if you a responsible breather.  By that I mean make sure you are getting several deep breaths throughout the day.  The body needs the oxygen and your stress levels will go way down, which incidentally is why we all have belly fat.

That been said I will end this blog post with a few intentions to start my day.  I like to set my intentions and desires for each day as well as those for my future pursuits.  It’s a great practice to get into, since it is from our intentions and desires that creation is born.  So here it goes!

  • I intend on walking to and from work today.  I am going to take the thirty minutes it takes to get there and back to become grounded and centered.  I am going to do a walking meditation.
  • I intend on working at a relaxing pace all the while having plenty of time to complete every task.
  • Finally I intend on doing all of this by being present.  I will be one with the present moment so that I will be open and receptive to the guidance from my spiritual advisers.

What are your intentions and desires for today?

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Transformation Facebook

Published April 10, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Recently it has become really important for me to find people who are on a similar path as I am.  I have actually considered moving to an area of the world that supports my beliefs, spiritually.  However, I have come to understand that it may be important for me to build a foundation where I am.

That been said, this morning I changed the name of my Facebook page that corresponds to my blog to Waking Up in Northern NY.  It would be completely amazing to find a group of like-minded people in my area but of course all are welcome.  Having a Facebook page will allow us to communicate, ask questions and contemplate the important things in life.

Stop in and say hello.  I am looking forward to creating an atmosphere of complete loving kindness.  One of complete openness and acceptance for everyone.  I am learning and exploring myself from the inside out, so I have a lot to learn.  There is strength in numbers.  Lets do this together.

Getting Guidance and Trusting Your Messages

Published April 10, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Today I am enjoying a day off.  I have discovered that I like being good to me, so I took today and plan on spending it with my darling husband.  It’s early, and I am the only one up.  It’s actually quite nice to enjoy some “me” time, some blogging time.

This morning I have been trying to articulate what it is that I actually believe these days.  I have spent the past few years Doreen-Virtue-Archangel-Michael-Remember-who-you-aredoing a lot of soul-searching.  I have journaled a lot, meditated a lot and really found a deep connection with my inner being.  It feels amazing to trust myself and my decisions.  It seems that I have found the sweet spot where all of my questions, concerns and wonders are answered.

It’s absolutely amazing to have the knowing to make decisions that are good for me and my family.  I used to allow others to make decisions for my life.  I had no idea that doing what everyone else wanted me to do would only create catastrophe and it often did, however I wasn’t conscious enough to see it then.

I mean, let’s be logical, if we do what someone else wants us to do it simply wont work.  Doing what is right for someone else just will not fit into the path of our life.  We are all unique individuals.  What is right for one cannot possible be what is right for another.  Listening to what others have to say is one thing but to do it exactly as they have will not work to our advantage.

I believe that the divine connection to my soul is more valuable than having all of the rich’s in the world.  Being connected to, and trusting the guidance of my spiritual advisers, God and the Archangels has transformed my life.  I have found a peace I didn’t know existed.  I have found Love and Light and completely get that they are what power the entire universe.

That been said, I am off to spread Love and Light those I come in contact with, whether it be physically or technologically.  I am ready to uplift.

My affirmations for today:

I am enough.

I am love and understanding.

I am open and receptive to the universal creative mind.

I maintain my healthy boundaries because it keeps the lines of communication open with my spiritual advisors.

And so it is ❤

What’s Your Truth?

Published April 4, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

What is my truth?

My truth is that I don’t know anything for certain except that I love me and love getting to know me.  Have you ever asked yourself, what is your truth?  It’s not as easy as one would think to put it down in black and white.  Knowing my truth has become my passion.

I have become aware that my inner purpose is to awaken to the fact that I am an incredibly interesting being.  Writing and learning about myself has been such an exhilarating project since starting a little over three years ago.  It’s never boring and I always learn something new.  For so long I wanted a hobby.  I was always complaining that I was bored.  Little did I know that I was the hobby I was looking for.

It all started so simply, journal writing, and meditating in the morning.  In the beginning there were a lot of stuff coming to the surface that I would have normally stuffed down with food, cigarettes, alcohol or whatever was there for that day.  But instead of stuffing it down I wrote it down, I wrote and wrote and wrote.  It was like releasing all of this stuff to make way for a more peaceful existence.

Through it all I can happily say that I have pretty much worked through all the garbage of my past, and have become aware enough to see the conditioned patterns that developed because of that garbage.  It was fun to get in there and dig deep when certain emotions would come up or certain destructive patterns would resurface.

I filled many journals, and through that I found that the more I wrote the more joyous I became.  Self-awareness, self-discovery and self-discipline are, in my opinion, in the foundation for a beautifully connected life.

It was, at times, an extremely emotional journey, mostly in the very beginning.  However, it didn’t take long to work through it, once I learned the art of forgiveness.  I know longer wallow in my own misery, and I know longer create misery for those that I love.  I have learned to forgive and have been forgiven.  I finally come from a place of peace and contentment.  I am able to see the universe rising up to meet me.

I am on my way.  I have graduated through the first phase of my journey, clearing the pathway.  With my pathway clear, I am able to enjoy the flow of the universe.  I am able to clearly pick up messages meant especially for me.  I can communicate with my spiritual team whenever I need them.  Life has opened up to me and I am so excited to see what it has in store.  It’s like a really good series that has no ending.

Onward and upward, my friends.

Life is a blessing, and since we are one with life, we are a blessing as well.

Getting the Answers

Published April 2, 2015 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I love getting validation.  During my journal writing I sometimes like to do something, I call Guided writing.  ThIMG_1832e G is capitalized because the Guided represents messages from my spiritual team.  All of my angels and spirit guides that are helping me move through life in such an effortless way are there for me whenever I need them.

In the picture you will see how after answering my question they gently reminded me that there is no question that I do not have the answer for.  Meaning that everything I need to know is already within me, I simply need to ask.

Anyway, not even a minute later Sonia Choquette, on Hay House Radio mentioned asking your angels and spirit guides questions and writing the answer.  This was just the validation I needed for today!

Every morning I ask; what is my message for the day?   And every day I get that message in such an uplifting way.

Life is certainly sweet.

The world is full of kind people, if you can’t find one, be one.

What Does Co-Creating Mean to You

Published November 24, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

I am in the midst of working through the work book section of The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav, This weeks assignment is creating a specific intention for the day and journal writing what I see.  My daily intention;

I intend on finding meaning for me personally in my every day experiences.  I intend on seeing what I did not see before, and I intend on recognizing my insights as valuable experiences in my extra sensory perception.

This brings me to the phrase “co-creating”.  I have seen this phrase many times over the past couple of days so I thought I would ask myself, what does co-creating mean to me?

Co-creating to me goes along with the saying “God helps those who help themselves”.  Meaning, I am able to create intentions and desires for my life and with God, I will realize them without struggle.  It means that as long as I am clear about what I want for my life, detach from the outcome and allow myself to flow freely with what is, my desires will be realized, not only in an effortless way but an exciting one.

I have come to understand long ago that I do not have all the answers.  That my way is not the best way.  Over the past several years it has become apparent that the less I try to make something happen the easier they do happen.  I know this may sound confusing to some, but it makes perfect sense to me.  I cannot tell you the many times in my life I created a plan of action to get a specific result only to have the plan fall apart and the whole thing implode before my eyes.

Over and over again I would create a clear-cut plan that would get me what I wanted only to fail miserably.  It wasn’t until I learned to be clear about what I want and stay open as to how I would receive it.  I came to realize that it was OK to have intentions and desires without a clue as to how they would come to fruition.

For example there was a point, not to long ago, that I hated my job.  My supervisor was insensitive and mean.  She used me as a dumping ground for her miserableness.  I tried so hard to find another job.  I applied to hundreds of positions, went on several interviews and got nothing.  I am a great employee so when it seemed no one wanted me it was not only frustrating but devastating.  I give 100% of myself to my employer.  I take on any job as if I owned it myself and make sure it shows in my work, but for some reason I just couldn’t get away.

Finally I conceded to it.  I surrendered.  I simply told God I would let him have this one.  I would not apply to another job.  My supervisor was leaving for surgery therefore I would relax and let God and the universe step up to find me the position of my dreams after she returned to work.  The next several weeks were amazing.  They were peaceful and I enjoyed every minute of it.  I was really beginning to enjoy my job.

As the day approached that she would be returning to work, I thought nothing of it.  I simply continued to do my job and keep quiet.  I remember it like it were yesterday.  She came back to work that Monday and was still as unhappy as she had always been.  Still, I did my job and kept quiet.  I noticed that she was beginning to get even more agitated as the day progressed.

All of a sudden she stood up from her desk and exclaimed that she just couldn’t do this anymore and stormed into the bosses office.  A few minutes later she re-entered our office and told me she put in her two weeks notice.  I was shocked but still, I said nothing.  Long story short, I am now the office manager in the same office and love my job more that anything.  My dream position was handed to me on a silver platter and I did nothing to make it happen.  I simply surrendered to what was and continued to do my best.

That is what co-creating means to me.  This is only one example of co-creating in my life.  I have many, many examples of co-creating that have occurred in my life since this one and looking back I can see how it was happening in my past as well.  It’s the most amazing gift.  Once I became conscious enough to realize it I was able to harness it and meet my intentions and desires with much more ease.

Life is an amazingly, magical ride.  Give it a shot you will not be disappointed.

With love and Light



Pro-op Appointment complete, God Help Me

Published November 14, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

Yesterday was my pre-op appointment.  It all seems so real now. I feel a little emotional.  I have to ask myself if I am ready?  Am I strong enough?  I know that I am usually pretty successful in most things that I do, but I haven’t had surgery in almost thirty years and I’m scared.  At the same time it feels really right.  I don’t know if that makes any sense or not, but I have to admit I am not making much sense to myself at this point.

Intellectually I know that I am ready.  I have been living mostly healthy for almost two years now.  I have been exercising and making better decisions where my health is concerned.  I know I deserve to know what it feels like to finally live in a body that is a healthy weight for me but this is kind of drastic.  I believe I couldn’t be in better hands than with the folks at the Adirondack Medical Center, and I also am very lucky to have the support of an amazing family.

I have four days left not counting today.  God is with me.  I know I will be just fine but the tears keep coming. Why do I cry?  I am not really sure.  Am I losing my mind?  Is this normal?  Am I going to be a basket case until they wheel me away? I believe that if we ask we shall receive, therefore, I ask you, God, help me find peace with this.

Liquid Diet is Underway

Published November 10, 2014 by Stuff My Brain Thinks

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I’m on day three of my liquid diet and ten days until surgery.  I have to say I am not hating this at all.  It’s actually pretty freeing.  I watched a video on YouTube yesterday that put it all into perspective.  This woman who had gastric bypass surgery explained that the who process is much like starting life over, like being a baby again, progressing from liquids to soft foods and finally to whole foods.  This was a aha moment for me.  This woman was a few years out and explained that she still had times of sadness that made sticking to her plan nearly impossible for her.  She explained that after gaining back thirty or so pounds she simply returned to the start of the process.  She returned to infancy once again and found her way.

I am actually pretty excited to see what eleven days without food does to me.  What emotions it will stir up.  I am keeping a hand written journal of self-awareness so I can learn more about me.  So far I have to say I am feeling pretty amazing.  I thought I would be tired, lazy and unproductive but quite the opposite occurred.  My house hasn’t been this clean in months.  I stayed busy and made the best of it.

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At no time did I allow my thoughts to venture into the area of poor me and resistance.  Every thought I have had been, and will have is about excitement for the process.  The excitement of learning more about me.  Today, I go back to work.  Normally if I were to have a stressful day I would come home and eat unnecessarily to try to comfort myself.  It shall be interesting to see how I handle this in the coming days.

My plan is to take this opportunity to learn better coping mechanisms for stress, to take this process and learn as much as I can about Michele, so that I never find myself back at this point again.  This will be one of the most important processes in spiritual growth for me.  The more conscious I am through this process, the more I will learn and change.  I am not only ready but eager to begin the next chapter in the book of Michele.

As always, be blessed and a blessing.



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